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THOMAS PRINTZ

THE BRIDGE TO FREEDOM

P.O. Box 335 Philodelphia 5, Pa.

DEDICATION

These personal revelations into the lives, hearts, and experiences of Those of Us Who helped to establish the Christian Dispensation, are lovingly dedicated to all the Children of God who seek peace, health, happiness, understanding and who desire to learn THE WAY to return Home. This book is presented with the hope that some of these Children of God will take courage from the realization that a few humble men and women passed through the same mental, emotional and physical trials which men face today. To this end I have opened My Book of Memories and have written those dear revelations so that all who will may read.

Looking backward, individuals may gain the strength builded of Our experiences and, looking forward, build a future of like perfection for them selves and the generations to come. Lovingly and sincerely,

MOTHER MARY

FOREWORD

Every 2,000 years a new spiritual outpouring is released to bless our Earth and Its evolutions. Great Beings volunteer to take embodiment in order to establish the particular magnetic and radiating center through which that spiritual out pouring may enter the souls of men. Even as light, heat and fecundating power is focused to the Earth through our physical Sun, so must there be a focal point through which all blessings enter the world of men.

Approximately 2,000 years ago, the Christian Dispensation was destined by God to bless the race. The beloved Master Jesus was chosen as the Being Who would descend into physical embodiment and, with the help of other dedicated individuals, present the Truth which would be the foundation of that Era. His Holy Mother (Mary) , His blessed Father (Joseph), His disciples and apostles pledged themselves to help Him fulfill His destiny. From the time of His conception until the day of His Ascension, His spiritual strength was upheld by loving, consecrated, faithful friends and family. To complete His service, His Mother and the disciples formed a spiritual community, bound to-

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gether in love for God, for Jesus, for the New Dis pensation and for all mankind. Thus, even after His Ascension, Jesus was enabled to radiate His blessings and anchor His Rays through the minds and bodies of His loved ones on Earth, leaving a strong foundation upon which the Christian Era has been built and sustained through the ages. All beginnings are small, from the human embryo to a planetary System.

This book is written to inspire the people of today to a like achievement in building a spiritual foundation wherein health, peace, illumination and opulence shall be the common heritage of all God's children.

Beloved Mother Mary has kindly and generously consented to bare Her heart, hoping that the trials, the tests of perception, the general experiences of Her day might inspire some few to a like endeavor in this day. We thank Her and bless Her for the energy released to make such a record available to all. We thank and bless also those whose indi vidual and collective energies made it possible to translate the pure energy of Her Heavenly heart into words that can be read by every man.

Sincerely,

THOMAS PRINTZ

CONTENTS

CHAPTER

ARCHANGEL GABRIEL

PAGE

(On: Childhood of Beloved Mary) .

SAINT JOHN, THE BELOVED ..•...•.•.••••

(On: Wisdom and strength of Beloved Mary) .

BELOVED MARY .......•...•...••..•.••

(On: Her service at Inner Levels of forming Sacred Heart for each incoming lifestream; "Immaculate Concept"; "Magnifying the Lord"; Importance of being a "conductor" of Master's light and love) .

BELOVED MARY ....•.........•.•••...•

(On: Importance of meditation and contempla tion; Importance of gathering momentums in decrees; More on Mary's service of forming "Sacred Heart; Great Initiation of Jesus; Jesus' visitation with Mary and disciples for forty days after Resurrection) .

BELOVED MARY

(On: Personal experiences and thoughts on first Good Friday; Mary's training and ability to hold "Immaculate Concept"; Her determination to hold it for each one on Earth now; Activities of the Sacred Heart Temple at Inner Levels which is Her par ticular service to life) .

BELOVED MARY ............••.........

(On: Importance of developing power of con centration to hold "Immaculate Concept" for self and others; Mary's offer to help us hold "Immaculate Concept" for each other; Mary's petition to Karmic Board for mercy to incoming lifestreams) .

BELOVED MARY . . • . . • . . . . . . . • . • • • . • . . .

(On: More about holding "Immaculate Con cept"; Description of "Compound", "Sleepers' Realm" and "Earth-bound"; Mary's petition to Karmic Board for as sistance to these Realms) .

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CHAPTER PAGE

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(On: Importance of buildi11gj"forcefields" through group activities; Benefits to incoming children through decrees; More on holding "Immaculate Concept"; Finding of old mill which became first focus of Christian Dispensation) .

9 BELOVED MARY ......................• 121

(On: Importance and benefits of group activi ties; Joy of meeting Jesus on Resurrection morning; Return of Jesus to Mary, John and disciples after Resurrection; Establish ing of focus of light which became founda tion of Christian Era) .

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(On: Intercessory prayer; Qualifications for Healing Temples; First Pentecost celebra tion; Opportunity to carry "Cup" to British Isles with [osepli of Arimathea; Visiting Luxor; Magnetizing future Shrines).

11 BELOVED MARY ........••••....•. .' •... 161

(On: "Grace"; More on Intercessory prayer; More on journey carrying "Cup" to British Isles; Return to Bethany; First community life of Christian Dispensation; Ascension of Mary).

12 BELOVED MARY ........•..........•..• 181

(On: Thought-forms of blessing sent from class; Thoughts at foot of cross on first Good Friday; Mary's vow to Jesus to stay and start Christian Dispensation; Mary's early experiences in Temple and with Arch angels; Memories of meeting and associa tion with [oseph; [oseph's "passing"; Meeting disciples and association with them; Training with and of Elemental Kingdom; Importance of making [riends with Elemental (Nature) Kingdom). €xcerpfo

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~ubritl (June 30, 1954)

(On: Childhood of Beloved Ma1·y.)

HAIL, beloved Spirits of Fire! Belov~d Chil dren of the Homeland! Tonight I bring you love from that Home. I hold you within the com pass of My arms and bring you the love of the Father as well as the love of the Divine Mother from Whose bosom you came forth into individual ization. You came with but one desire in your sweet, earnest hearts-to do Their will, to carry the light and to be the full manifestation of Their love.

Hail to Thee! 0, Spirit of this great mountain (Grand Teton) , mighty Deva holding the focus of the powers of the Sacred Fire. . . . . From time immemorial there have been certain spiritually advanced beings who have chosen to become a part of the Cosmic moment, embody and carry some portion of the God-design into the world of form through the veil of physical birth. I have often been invoked by such beings and before they took birth, have promised them that I would come to them at the time of the

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fulfillment of their mission. In the full freedom of My God-radiation, I promised to bring to them remembrance of their vow, their Divine purpose and of the capacity within their lifestreams to fulfill that purpose in dignity, honor and victory. Before the Holy Mary (Mother of Jesus) took physical birth, I promised Her that I would come and help Her by flashing into Her consciousness the remembrance of the Immaculate Conception which She was to hold. This was to be the seed around which the electronic light and substance of Earth would form to create the physical vehicle of Jesus. However, much was dependent upon Mary's Own consciousness in order that She might be in a state of "listening grace" at the split second when the Law would allow Me to make such a visitation. Only thus would She be able to receive My Presence, accept My words and be able to feel that flash of illumination and Divine fire, anchoring It within Her Own consciousness so that It might be for Her the sustaining power in

the world of form.

From the day She was taken to the Temple, an infant of three, Beloved Mary lived in a state of constant "listening grace". It was easy indeed for Me to say when I stood before Her: "Hail, Mary, full of grace!" Truly it seemed to be a somewhat lonely life for such a small child, taken so young from the arms of Her mother. While She was raised with the other young girls of Judea, yet Her interests were different from those among whom She moved. Her life was one in which She contemplated all the prophecies of the Old Testa ment; one in which She developed a tremendous devotion to the Beloved Vesta (Spiritual Comple ment of Beloved Helios, the One in charge of our physical Sun. Beloved Vesta is the Cosmic God mother of our planet and of our System) . While other children were playing with dolls, Mary virtually cradled the world in those infant arms, through the feeling of that Divine Mother-love which She drew from Beloved Vesta Herself, by Her contemplation and love of that great Being. The angels were always around Her, enjoying the fragrance of Her presence. Even in that small body, She was truly a "Queen of the Angels". Mary grew in that grace, in that symmetry 0£ form, in that beauty and humility of nature-so much so that there was practically no veil between the Angelic Kingdom and Her own sweet Self. It was well that such momentum was builded and such faith and confidence established between Her and the Angelic Kingdom during those early sheltered years because, in Her later life, Mary had the visitation of an Angel again. This time He brought news of impending disaster. Mary and Joseph, with that small baby, were called upon to leave the shelter of Their home and journey into Egypt, across a land filled with dangerous wild life. Here She was sustained by this momentum builded in Her early years and Her confidence in the Celestial visitors, Her faith in Their word

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was such that never for a moment did She question Their reality or Their wisdom. Thus She re mained at peace, even though the Beloved Joseph was torn between reason and intuition, feeling within Himself the great responsibility of His guardianship.

The large liquid eyes of Mary were always filled with that faith indescribable and when They were told by the Angel to make this journey into Egypt, She said: "Joseph, we shall go!".

Now you are those who follow a similar path. You, too, are coming into closer association with the Angelic Kingdom. This association is one of

Master Saint Germain. It is meant to bring to mankind and incarnate Angels, the joy of associa tion with those of Us Whose pinions have never been bound round by flesh. In your happy times, cultivate confidence in Us and enjoy Our Presence. Then, when it is required by the Law, and a moment comes when perhaps your very safety or that of others will depend upon that confidence, you will be able to place your hands in the hands of Celestial visitors and, as Mary said: "be the handmaiden of your Lord".

Thus is obedience builded out of love, not out of fear; thus is friendship builded out of shared sweet experiences; thus do the Angels draw close into the aura of those who know love and there We abide! There We feel no separation from the Father's Kingdom. . . . . "

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April 7, 1955

(On: Wisdom and strength of Beloved Mary)

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you will remember it was My

• • honor to serve with Our Beloved

Mother Mary. I often wondered which was the guard and which was the one who was receiving the protection, for Her strength and Her power were such-Her wisdom and capacity to teach were such that I really think it was the mercy of the Law that Beloved Jesus gave Me to Her, rather than Her to Me. That comfort of Her Presence and the warmth of Her light sustained Us until We became anchored enough within Our Own light to meet our Master again.

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91'lother of ~e~u~

January 19, 1954

(On: Her service at Inner Levels of forming Sacred Heart for each incoming lifestream; "Immaculate Concept"; "Magnify· the Lord"; Importance of being a conductor" of Master's light and love.)

MAY the peace of God rest on you, beloved children! May the love of God and for God rise within your hearts, until it becomes the pre dominant feeling in your consciousness and you become aware of that Divine Presence in every cell and atom of your earnest selves. Well do I know your hearts! It seems but yester day that you stood-pure white spirits-before Me and presented to Me the elemental substance which was to form your garments of flesh in the next embodiment. Each of you had been called before the Lords of Karma and given an oppor tunity to take a new incarnation, each one pre senting those energies which were to form the envelope through which your soul might seek understanding and ultimate freedom. Since entering into the Realms of Eternal Light, 1t has been My privilege to assist in the creation of the Chalice (heart) which holds the Sacred Fire, .iround which is drawn the elemental substance of

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the flesh form. Within this Chalice burns the Fire of Immortality.

In each twelve-month cycle, every lifestream who is to incarnate upon the Earth within that period, enters My aura. Together We fashion the physical heart which will enshrine the Sacred Fire of life throughout the entire lifespan. Therefore, when I enter a room and welcome the hearts, souls and spirits of those present, I take great delight in looking upon My Own handiwork. I rejoice as the Flame within that Sacred Heart begins to expand, dissolving the shadows and, one day, burst ing forth in a great transfiguration of the self into the Presence. It is through this process of using the Sacred Fire that the base substance, through Divine Alchemy, is drawn into Divine purity. This is the same method by which every lifestream who has ascended entered into the full use of the Im

eternity.

While We have the great opportunity of hold ing the attention of mankind through this year* upon Our Presence and Our service to life, I shall endeavor to convey to the students (as well as those who visit with Me in the Resurrection Temple, or in any one of the Retreats or Sanctu aries where My Focus and Flame abide) the con sciousness of the "Immaculate Conception". This consciousness I developed through century after

t• Beloved Mother Mary and Beloved El Morva were the Sponsors for the Mankind of Earth during 1954. century of dedication of My spirit and self-con scious loyalty to God.

When the beloved Jesus was a very small boy, He already manifested this purity of spirit. He was born with a natural beauty of consciousness. He had no karma. There was not a stain on His soul, nor one flaw within His thoughts and feel ings that would contaminate the perfect expres sion of His mind, His body, or His spirit. Pure and perfect as Jesus was, He had the use of the faculties of the senses more highly developed than any child born of woman. He had perfect sight, perfect hearing, perfect taste, touch and smell. Be sides this, He had a great sensitive intuition to spiritual things. Jesus was like a beautiful, delicate instrument, made to contact the vibratory action, not only of the physical world, but the Higher Spheres as well. This exquisitely developed life stream was naturally capable of drawing the appear ance world into Himself with greater impact, by the very clarity of His senses; much more so than the dense and dull consciousness that perceives little and exists rather than lives. Along with every man and woman on Earth, Jesus had the gift of free-will, into which even I (by Cosmic Law) was not permitted to intrude through the pressure of My desire for His freedom. It was My great privilege to help that consciousness to use those faculties to magnify the God of Light and the perfection of the Father Whom He had vowed to represent to the race. Think on this for a moment!

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Jesus did not live in a "charmed world." We lived in a small, humble village and He was called upon to "rub shoulders" with the lame, the halt and the sick; with the diseased of mind and body. In the day when We walked the Earth, there were no institutions to close around those desolate forms which today are not apparent to the masses. This beautiful and delicate-minded boy, dressed in His simple little white tunic, the sandals that Joseph made for Him upon his feet, was exposed to every thought on every plane, with only Our Jove to clothe Him round. It was then that I said to Him: "Son, your soul has the power to magnify anything that you choose to accept as real. You may magnify an appearance of illness and distress or you may magnify the Lord of Life." Then I tried to show Him the simple principles which I shall present night after night in Our Resurrec tion Temple while it is active during this thirty day period and which I intend to give to the stu dents at every opportunity I have to speak to them throughout the year. Jesus has said that it helped Him so much to deliberately magnify the Lord instead of appearances and I tell you that it saved My sanity many times throughout that embodi ment. Saint Germain (as Joseph), often blessed that principle also. It helped Me to go through the initiations that I hope no other unascended being· will ever be called upon to take. Therefore, I guarantee that it will help your individual souls through every experience you may have. Beloved ones, your souls, are magnets. From your soul flows your life. That with which your attention connects, your soul does magnify. It is a mathematical and scientific principle which none can escape, be they initiates, chelas or laymen. You may magnify good or evil. When your atten tion connects with any appearance, your life flows from your own heartbeat into it and it grows, magnifying in your own consciousness-both in the appearance world and in the inner realms wherever that soul abides. Now, you may either magnify the shadows and distresses of the appear ance world, or you may magnify the Power of God by turning the beam of your energy and attention to that Holy Christ Self. Hold your attention there, dedicating it to receiving and magnifying Its Powers and Qualities, until your Inner Self grows in confidence, grows in beauty and grows in per fection in imitation of that One. We made a game of it when Jesus was young. As children do, He would come with bruises on His feet or on His knees (all the various appearances that affect small growing boys) and I would say: "We shall not magnify that hurt or that -scar. We shall mag nify Our Lord." Then, turning Our attention to that Perfect Pattern, the three of Us would draw the healing and peace of that Presence through Our beings until the appearance of imperfection would disappear. We did this systematically. We did it daily. Together, We gathered a momentum that I, within Myself, knew was building a posi-

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tive power of resistance in the consciousness of Jesus against every atppearance of evil, so that when His Cosmic moment came upon Him, He could even look at dei.ath itself and refuse to mag nify it by the power oi one heartbeat. Thus He turned all the power of His energy to Life, magni fying the power of rhat life through Him until death itself was vanqt,1,ished! Do you see? It should be the same with you, dear hearts. We have watched the family life of mankind and I have watched the mothers and the fathers of the race. I have seen them in their great sincerity, with their great sense of personal responsibility and their earnest desire to surround their indi vidual flock with securitv and protection. Yet through that very sincerity, they magnify the ap pearance of distress. Instead they should magnify the All-power of the Presence, until the energy of the up-reaching consciousness would conduct the substance of healing, supply and protection, into the world of form. I have said within Myself: "When opportunity presents itself, I SHALL

MAKE THE 'MAGNIFICAT' THE CREED OF

THE CONSCIOUS CHELAS. They shall accede as I did to that principle of Truth that stood within My world until they are free."

Oh, Sons of Heaven! Daughters of Heaven! Why magnify the appearance world? Together let us magnify the Powers of the Lord! Thank you for accepting the feeling of this, dear heart friends! As I witness the coming of the Masters into the consciousness of the earnest students, bringing Their gifts of light, Their vision of things to come, and then I see the distress of the per sonal self of those earnest ones, the limitations and the shadows of the soul, My heart is near to bursting with the desire to convey to you how simple it is to connect with the Christ Self. It is done by just turning your attention, your spirit and your senses to the ever-present God (within your heart), allowing your energies to bask in that uplifting, healing, omnipresent consciousness of All Good; feeling the Flame of your own heart like an unfolding lotus, conducting those God qualified energies into the world of form. All of the great men and women who have per formed the seeming miracles of the ages have been merely "conductors". My beloved Jesus was merely a "conductor" Who connected the energies of His physical and inner bodies with His Father Mother God. He had such perfect trust in God, that no outer appearance could ever draw an electron from His feeling world or cause Him to magnify it! That was His tremendous accomplish ment, the feeling of which He has offered to give to any individual who cares to accept it. (His feeling carries His power of accomplishment!) I was present in Cana where Jesus performed His first so-called "miracle". There He just turned His attention to the Father of All Good and al lowed the energies of His Own inner bodies to change the substance of that water into electronic

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light-the people unconsciously qualifying it with that which they desired to manifest (which was wine) . It is one of the simplest activities, just a "letting go" of the limited outer self and connect ing inwardly with the Presence of God, allowing His power of healing, of supply or of peace, to flow into the manifestation.

Blessed ones! This should be a year of tremen dous importance to you. Even if a handful of you can grasp the significance of this Law, if you can work it out in some simple manifestation, feeling the power of your own energies connecting with the power of the Christ Self-you will truly be Ourselves in action! You move around in the world of form and your senses have been in the habit of bringing to your consciousness reports of good and evil. Won't you now try to change that by accepting only the good? Will you try to re member Me as you go about your daily work and let Us see what you will magnify in the course of each day? It is a happy training and a pleasant pastime. You know yourself, even in your human activities, how grateful you are when friends do not magnify your weaknesses and how grateful is the soul when there is even one who magnifies your service, your capacities and your capabilities! That is what We do constantly! You know, some of the students are unduly concerned when We commend individuals for accomplishment. Judg ing from human standards, they question the wis dom of Our commendation but We are magnify- ing the good while the limited outer consciousness of the student magnifies the appearance. If We had not magnified the good, the human race would have passed into the "second death" long ago. There is not a member of the Spiritual Hierarchy Who ever took human embodiment, Who would have been able to get "Home" God-free, if some other soul had not chosen to stand by and mag nify the good within that incarnated spirit. Some one held the faith, held the confidence, held the trust, while the individual (engaged in Cosmic service), endeavored to fulfill his mission. May every God-Presence now individualized choose to magnify the good in each other. When that is done, We shall have a Universal heart and a body, a soul and a spirit made up of every life stream belonging to the Father-Mother God that will truly embody the nature of the Cosmic Christ. To your hearts, to your families, to your loved ones, I direct the energy of the Flame of My Presence, for your beautiful hospitality and for your exquisite remembrance of Me in your daily life. Your devotion draws Us closer and closer and gives Us opportunity without limit to bless you individually and collectively.

For Myself, I shall magnify the light in your hearts, for I believe in you. You know, I helped to create those hearts and I shall see you God-free! I bless you and thank you. Now I shall say "Good Evening".

1Belnueh itury

cmother (.)l :;le6U6

February 5, 1954

(On: Importance of meditation and contemplation; Impor tance of gathered momentums in decrees; More on Mary's service of forming Sacred Heart; Great Initiation of Jesus; Jesus' visitation with Mary and disciples for forty days after Resurrection).

BELOVED children, I come to bring to you My love and gratitude for your deep interest in life and to endeavor through conveyed con sciousness to show you ways and means by which your individual worlds might again be set into Divine order. I do this that you may find your selves conductors of that Presence of God which mentally you have accepted as filling this Universe; but which requires the confirmation of your feel ings to be ever active through you into this world of form.

In a measure, each of you is a bridge conducting the consciousness of the Inner Realms into the world of form and acting as mediators (even as I do at inner levels) between the fullness of God and the Intelligences which represent Him and the mass mind.

Mankind may rebel all they wish at the neces sity for mediation between the fullness of the God head and the outer consciousness. However, the Law of Life and the Intelligence that governs the

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great Universal Scheme of Creation, has provided these "step-down" transformers in mercy. This is done so that those who voluntarily and consciously descended into the pit might have a chain of energy over which the blessings, the mercy and the very spiritual life (which sustains their souls) may flow. In time, over such a chain of energy (when the voluntary energies of their own worlds so desire) they may ascend again into their right ful estate and assume their places as Sons and Daughters of the Most High Living God. Even as the spider weaves out of his body the web and uses it as a means of transportation to and fro, so is the bridge of life energy woven out of the very Essence of Divinity. It is carried by the Messengers and the lifestreams who may have only a partial connection with the Realm of Per fection, in order to infiltrate the consciousness, stimulate a love for Truth and, wherever possible, act as instruments of Faith by which works may be manifest.

Each of you has developed (over the ages and through the centuries) certain momentums that make you conductors for specific qualities that represent the nature of God. These momentums are your individual and voluntary gift to life. They are the treasures stored up in heaven. They are that part of you which We can use to external ize Our work and service in the world of form. They are the only part of any lifestream with which We are concerned. It is Our desire at all

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times to emphasize and externalize more and more of the nature of God through the "leaven" in the individual lifestream. This "leaven" may be faith, purity, peace, happiness, or it may be a momentum of teaching or healing. These examples are just to give you a "bird's-eye" picture, you might say, of the way vVe in the Hierarchy work in drawing around ourselves certain lifestreams who We feel can best serve the Divine Plan in cooperation with Our life. We then endeavor to connect Our energies with these individuals through whatever means are at hand.

We connect Our energies with mankind by radi ation; through the contemplation by your blessed selves in thinking upon Our Presence. We also connect Our radiation with your consciousness through the spoken word at the rare intervals when life allows Us this privilege. In every in stance, every Perfected Being Who lives within the Kingdom, contacts unascended beings solely to expand the borders of the Kingdom; to expand the radiation of perfection and to draw more light and more of the God gifts into this world of form, into the Psychic and Astral Realm which forms the atmosphere of your planet.

My service to life has been connected with the creation of the heart through which the Sacred Fire is focused into the physical appearance world, giving identity and being to a personality for a time. It is an interesting service that perhaps can be elaborated upon. You use it yourselves in this

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Activity to create a heart-center, made up of living cells, living intelligent beings having free will. However, this is different from the heart made up of intelligent energy sworn to obedience, which is the physical heart of an individual. When the lifestream is given the grant of secur ing a new Earth body and when the Lords of Karma have passed on it, that lifestream is drawn into My Temple. Together We look over the substance and energy which the soul has used (oh! perhaps through aeons of time). This is the per sonal heritage endowed by nature to that soul to form the envelope in which it must function. As I have said before, We endeavor first to fashion (from that elemental substance) the heart, which is the chalice for the Immortal Three-fold Flame of Life. The heart cells in the physical body are the most highly developed of the elemental substances that make up the physical form be cause, in the course of their service to life, they require more resistance and more durability, in order to stand the "beat" which gives life to the physical body. Therefore, from among all the elemental substance which will form the flesh gar ment, the most highly developed electrons are used in the heart. These are drawn into the body of the prospective mother and become part of the flesh of her form, even before conception takes place. Then through that marvelous intelligence of the Builders of Form, the heart cells belonging to the ne:w soul are segregated from the body of

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the mother, always discarding the substance which is of the parent. In this way, the substance which is of the new soul makes this exquisite Chalice en folding the Three-Fold Flame of Life. It is such a beautiful, mathematical and scien tifically accurate process that I would love to show you in pictures on a screen the precision with which the Builders of Form magnetize the sub stance belonging to the incoming soul and cast off again, again and again one cell out of every two, until this heart is formed.

In exactly the same measure and manner, the cells that are to form the spiritual heart of a com munity, a Movement, a great Nation, a planet, a Universe or a Galaxy, are selected from the life streams who have developed the greatest endur ance and the greatest purity. These have earned through the ages of time the privilege and honor of forming the canopy of protection around the Sacred Fire which is to be drawn forth and ex panded for the blessing of the masses. From the great body of mankind, there are not available too many cells that can be used for a spiritual heart. From within the spiritually at tuned and elect, We find seven distinct types of individual momentums and consciousness which could be utilized in the seven ganglionic centers of the Spiritual Body of the Christ. These people respond to the impetus of a New Activity. They know that they are destined, you might say, to become a part of some vital organ in a great cur-

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rent endeavor, whether it be a World Movement or a local political activity. In that response they sometimes apply for a position within the heart, although they belong to another center. The same spiritual segregation goes on constantly, drawing in the heart cells, purifying them, fitting them one by one into their perfect place; then endeavoring harmoniously, if possible, to draw the other cells into their own vital organism.

This is the activity in which you are engaged today, beloved ones. More or less, you are the substance being formed by the Hands and Hearts of Intelligences greater than your own. In this great scheme of things each one has his perfect place. We who can see, have designed so carefully the creation of the Spiritual Heart. This will be the supplier of the energies to vitalize this great Spiritual Body that is to be the Cosmic Christ of the future, made up of every one of the ten billion souls destined to incarnate and develop mastery on the Earth.

The creation of a heart is the most crucial point in the creation of a physical organism. It is also a most crucial point in the creation of a spiritual organization. It requires tr"emendous application upon the part of each and every lifestream who has been "summoned" by the Law, and who has been even loosely fitted into the design. As I have been honored this year by being given opportunity to reach the masses, I am also hon ored by the opportunity of working with those of

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you who choose to see the design behind the seem ing chaos and confusion. As My own momentum allows and the wisdom of My centuries of forming hearts permits, I shall endeavor to help you in your task.

In the physical body, if at the time of gestation the cells that are to form the seven great centers might not polarize properly (for some reason or other) or are not held within their orbit perfectly, you have a physical instrument of incarnation that is defective in one or many ways.

The spiritual sorting (wherein every lifestream takes his perfect place and abides therein) is essen tial before We can expand the endeavor to raise and redeem the masses and purify all discordantly qualified functions in the spiritual body of the race.

We are in a secret and sacred time, a time when I, Myself, remembering My own experience, sug gest that you ponder these things in your heart. Pray on them; ask the grace of your own Christ Self to illumine them to you and then strain not, but endeavor to be the best cell that you can in your appointed place.

I have thought it would be a pleasurable gift to life this year to endeavor to record some of the heretofore unchronicled experiences of Our life in Judea. From time to time as opportunity per mits, I shall bring to your remembrance certain of these homely pictures and scenes.

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Jesus, We used to sit together in comparative privacy in those few moments We sometimes had when there were no demands for assistance from the public. We talked about the ways and means by which We could best perpetuate the Truth, preserve the clarity of Jesus' message and give It to posterity as a workable law.

During the years of My Son's life, I dedicated Myself almost entirely to the holding of that Im maculate God-concept for Him. I did not engage in any extraneous services except those required of My household. I endeavored to live in a state of constant contemplation of His Divine Man hood, emphasizing His mastery through the pres sure of My Own concentrated thought and feel ing. After the blessed Joseph was removed from the screen of life, I felt a double responsibility in the holding of this "Immaculate Concept." I can tell you sincerely that it was not without much personal regret that I parted from the great strength, the quiet serenity and dignity of Joseph to walk that path more or less alone. However,

mined it to be so and when His mission was ac complished He, like all the others before Him, folded His robes about Him and returned into the Heart of the Father. It was My opportunity to remain.

Sometimes, Jesus and I would sit together in the evening and talk over the various points that

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were to be emphasized through His mmistry. More than once, We discussed the necessity of passing through the appearance of death in order to prove the Immortality· of Life and that man, through his own consciousness, might transcend death and master a garment which, to all intents and appearances, had lost its vitality. In the Retreat where this Initiation takes place (for instance, at Luxor) , it is comparatively easy for the highly trained Initiate to withdraw the senses from contact with the world about him and suspend the breath, so that, to all intents and purposes, the body is "dead". However, to per form this act consciously, amid hundreds of vicious and uncontrolled consciousnesses, is an Initiation of a difjerent sort! Yet the outer consciousness is such that unless mankind themselves actually per formed and executed the death sentence, they would never have believed that the Resurrection was authentic and that it was not the trick of a fakir or a manifestation of hypnosis. I will tell you frankly, neither Jesus nor Myself relished the necessity of having Him pass through this great service to life. When He did ask that that "cup" be taken from Him, it was because none, ascended or unascended, knew for a cer tainty that victory would be assured through a public demonstration. You see, through such a demonstration, all of the astral and psychic vicious ness that had accumulated since the "fall of man" was directed through those embodied individuals

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who allowed themselves to be used as pawns of that "force". They acted it out on the screen of life, endeavoring to destroy the serenity and equa nimity of the Initiate. Not only the pitiful masses who opened themselves to those "forces" but the far more subtle and powerful influences that wished to destroy the victory of that mission, were something with which to be reckoned. From the time that the first so-called "miracle" at Cana placed Jesus' name before the people, through the days of Golgotha, I made (what you would call today in the terms of the Church) a "Perpetual Novena". I spent hours, every avail able moment that I was not attending to the necessities to keep our bodies alive, in contempla tion and in prayer for the fulfillment of the victory of the Resurrection through Him.

Luke (one of the disciples), was a physician and had been privately initiated by Jesus in some of the subtle activities connected with healing. Yet He would often say: "I do not believe it can be done"! However, as you know, it was done beautifully with the assistance of the Great Maha Chohan and the beloved friends, Ascended and otherwise. The memory and the glory of that ex perience remains to this day!

I speak of this only because you might wonder why We did not plan more for the future. Our minds and hearts were more or less concentrated on making this mission so dynamically and posi tively impressed upon and imbedded in the con- sciousness of the people, that somehow We didn't think too far beyond the Resurrection morning. Those of you who were close by in those years know that the mission of Jesus was deeply re corded in the etheric bodies which you carry; also the victories and the miracles recorded in writing the books of the Bible, which have been a pattern for the people up to the present day. These rec ords are to be re-vivified now and brought forth as a positive proof of His Truths and His great Cosmic Service to life.

However, as We drew closer to that final pag eant, Jesus and I decided between Us that I should return to Bethany. You see, in Bethany, we knew (almost) the only happiness during those difficult days. We knew "home" there. We knew the sweetness of the flowers and the joy of friendship that was untouched by desire for personal gain. We used to sit there and just rejoice in the Pres ence of God and of each other.

Jesus said: "Mother, in Bethany I think you and those who will remain can best live out those years yet allotted You. If the Law permits, I shall visit you there from time to time and, to the best of My ability, convey to You and those of My heart friends, the Laws which will strengthen and assist You to help the people".

So, on that day at Calvary, whein the hours of trial were accomplished, John and I walked down that hill. Remembering our Blessed Jesus' ad monition, John took Me back to Bethany and the other disciples joined us there shortly after Easter

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morning. There We had the exquisite association with each other in the forty days before the Ascen sion, which time was given Us by the Karmic Board as a grant of mercy. If the disciples and the heart-sore believers had been denied that as sociation of the mystical Presence of Jesus for those forty days, I think they could not have held the faith! The Resurrection Morn was a very small instant. It could have been (the human mind would say) conjured up out of hope, but for forty long days We had a visitation every day! Sometimes we had just minutes; sometimes an hour with Our Beloved and so the Ascension Day was not as difficult a parting as was Good Friday. The story of Our stay in Bethany and how w·

devised the plan to set the Christian Era into ac tion, I am going to endeavor to draw forth for you as quickly as time will permit and your ener gies allow Me the freedom to enter your worlds. It is a pleasant recital-a happy and peaceful one! It is about a time when Jesus did come-O, yes! very often-and talked with Us; a time when We recorded many Truths; a time when Peter, James and John wrote Gospels that remain hidden to this day! They will one day come forth as the mystical and inner teachings of the Christ. My story is also about a time when healings were manifested-O, in a simple and unostentatious way perhaps; a time when those who loved My Son chose to embody His teachings in learning the intricacies of mystical healing. At that time, I also wrote certain treatises for posterity which I

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hope to bring to your attention at a later date. This was a time when ages yet unborn were un folded before Us, from the free heart and Spirit of the One We called Master and Friend. Bethany will always hold a place in My heart and the hearts of all who were a part of It there.

This morning, I have come primarily to bring you peace, beloved ones; to confirm the Ascended Masters' faith in your light; to confirm the trust and belief of the Brotherhood in your spiritual integrity and to tell you, each one, that you are precious beyond words in the sight of God. This may seem of very little import to human senses, but the registration of the outer thoughts and feel ings of the people is no measure for that which is God-confirmed.

Beloved children, it is a beautiful thing to look at hearts you fashioned thirty, forty, fifty years ago and see them so little changed; in many cases, to see the crystal light having raised the vibratory action of every cell. It is a beautiful thing, when one gives a lovely piece of handiwork to any of God's children and finds it sustained in grace, often burnished by the light and fire of suffering, until it is a more beautiful Chalice. One day, when you lay these bodies down and carry the replica of that heart into the Halls of Karma, it will be lovely to see it with the light shining through, containing within it the harvest of your service in all your embodiments. I, for One, am looking forward to that day with great joy. Thank you and God bless you!

irlnurh :Sary crnother

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Good Friday-April 16th, 1954

(On: Personal experiences and thoughts on first Good Friday; Mary's training and. ability to hold "Immaculate Concept" and Her determination to hold it for each one on Earth now; Activities of the Sacred Heart Temple at Inner Levels which is Her particular interest and service to life.)

BELOVED children, do you know that today is an anniversary? Today is the anniversary of that first Good Friday when I was given the marvelous opportunity of becoming the Mother of every one of you-the Mother of every soul belonging to this evolution; the Mother of every precious aspiring spirit belonging to the evolu tions of this planet. Through this opportunity, it is My privilege to love, to care for each one, en folding them in that personalized radiation of interest and solicitude of motherhood until all have attained their full mastery in the light! That first Good Friday morning, I walked alone up a dreary hillside, the Mother of One and walked down a few hours later, the Mother of millions! Was that not an opportunity? Was it not a crown ing glory rather than a sorrow? Good Friday changed Me from a woman with individual inter ests, to a Cosmic Mother of all the souls so dear to the Heart of God and I shall always remember It thus! It is always so in one's experience-when

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you give that which is most dear to you, returning it to the Universal in accordance with God's will, though it tear your heart! The return from God is most generous in its blessings, in that, where before there was One most precious, there is born the love for the many!

/ How shall I describe to you, My dear ones, the exaltation of the soul when the consciousness and feelings are lifted up and Your arms become the "everlasting arms" that enfold all the conscious nesses that belong to this Earth with the same intensity of purpose that you have held for the One or the few? My ministry and experience is a magnificent example of this because, by the very nature of the service that Jesus was to per form, I was required to take an Initiation to per fect Myself upon one-pointedness and concentra tion of My energy, My substance, My protection and My life around that single lifestream. By the very importance of the Cosmic moment, I was not allowed to let My attention wander. Then, in an instant, that One was removed Who was the focus of My attention; of all My life; all My love and solicitude; all the nights of sleepless prayer; all of the days of constant calling to God for help; and then I received the command from the Heart of the Great Father of All to expand that solicitude to encompass the many-all at once! Beloved ones, witness the wisdom of the Great Law in building a momentum! That Great Law drew the power of concentration, of love and self- lessness, of purity and dedication, building of it a concentrated focus that, on a Cosmic instant, the Flame from the Heart of the Universal struck into that momentum, expanded it and made it world-wide and world-engulfing!

Witness the kindness of the Law to leave no vacuum-no emptiness-not even one moment of desolation before the Spirit of the One gave the command: "Mother, behold Thy children!" and "Children, behold thy Mother!" The moment those words were spoken, the Flame within My heart expanded and in the relinquishing of the spirit of Jesus into the bosom of the Eternal Father, I was filled with that great radiation of love for all! 0, the kindness of God-the mercy of life-in that hour of Our Initiation! I can speak with authority when I say to you-you are never, never, never alone! That which you build so humbly in your daily, hourly living is forming a focus which, at a particular moment, can be expanded as was Mine. A series of apparently humble daily experi ences into which all the energies of My bodies were poured, builded a form that was to be for Me My strength, My balance and My sanity in the hour of My need. So, you also build your strength in the quietness of the days before the release of the opportunity which will be your individual destiny. No man knows when that hour comes; for each one it is different. For Me, it was at Calvary! For you, each one, a great, Cosmic climax to your Earth's experiences will occur and then

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the mercy of the great Universal First Cause, bless ~ng you, will ~ustain you through to your victory. It was required of Me to stand guard, fully con scious, on that hillside throughout those hours of Jesus' crucifixion. I thought you might care to know of what I was thinking while I kept watch there. I stood and held the Immaculate Concep tion of Life Eternal within My consciousness, en deavoring to duplicate in the physical body, the Initiation through which I had passed victoriously before Jesus and I took embodiment. I stood there and held the concentrated Christ focus of the Resurrection Flame for My Son and to do this I concentrated all of My energies on a happy pat tern of Our life experiences.

I began thinking back to the Council in which the Lord Maitreya, in His great mercy and kind ness, offered Me the opportunity of holding the

the pressures of Initiation. During that Initiation, the spiritual winds blew and the pressures of thought and feeling from within Me, as well as those directed at Me by the Brotherhood, tried to break My line of thought, My pattern of thinking and feeling to allow the intrusion of other ideas, even good ones, on the visualization of the perfect Image which I was holding. I remembered the sweet voice of Lord Maitreya (at the close of the three hours of Initiation) giving the blessing, saying: "It is well, Mary. However, remember that the winds You have felt, the pressures You

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have known in the full freedom of Your inner bodies, are as naught before those You will feel exuding from the consciousness of mankind who, in impurity, selfishness, bigotry and viciousness, will drive at You, at Your Spouse and at Your Child, after the mission is begun!"

Standing in the winds of Calvary's hilltop, look ing at the greed in the consciousness of those who loved and enjoyed the spectacle, I remembered well those words and I held with every fibre and cell of My being to that Immaculate Concept of the resurrected, risen, breathing Christ. With every cell and atom of My being I called to Lord Maitreya, to the beloved Vesta, to the beloved Helios, to the beloved Gabriel and to every One Who had given Me assistance. "O, God! 0, God! 0, God!" I prayed. "Help Me now in the physical appearance world, wearing the garment of flesh, part of the mental and emotional body of this Earth-help Me to hold this Immaculate Concept through these hours."

I sensed the response from the heart of the Sun; I saw the Presence of Vesta; I saw above Jesus the luminous, shining Presence of Lord Maitreya; I felt the wingspread of Gabriel's kindly and lumi nous Presence; I knew Friends-Friends that are yours today-just for the asking!

Then I thought of a winter night long ago and a simple stable. I thought, too, of Joseph, My loving Husband and My heart went out to Him. Within Myself I cried: "O, Joseph! Joseph! Were

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it but possible that You could be here with Me today! Were it 'but possible that the strength of Your light could sustain Me now as I hold the Concept that We so happily held through Jesus' growing years to this day! O! that it were possible for You to stand with Me now as We stood so often at the doorway of Our home and visualized and witnessed this innocent form growing to mastery." Joseph was there with Me, in spirit of course! Friends of light, friends that build the bonds that last for Eternity, some of you were there with Us then; some of you here remember that day! I thought also of the long, tedious Tide into Egypt; of the sleepless nights when we fled before the soldiers of Herod; of Our coming into a strange land; of the entrance into the Temple to which we returned in our later years. All of these me mories I summoned· up from within My etheric body, keeping My mind busy upon the plan and pattern of Perfection, holding to every happiness, every memory that blotted out the appearance of the hour. In time (for time is the great healer) as I continued to hold that Immaculate Concept undisturbed, Its perfect work was done and I be came the marvelously blessed Receiver of the souls of men.

Filled with an inner peace and exaltation, I walked with John down that hill and out of Jeru salem. "Ah," I thought, "Jerusalem, fickle City! Just one week ago the Hosannas rang-yet three days hence Thou art destined to be the stage for a drama remembered for ages. The Temples shall have fallen, the decayed walls broken and the voices which were raised in the call for the cruci fixion shall be stilled."

In peace, John and I walked to Bethany and there We remained until the days were accom plished and the Resurrection was fact. My Son, triumphant, visiting Us thereafter, established a focus for the Christian Dispensation and there We abode for thirty long years, until I was privileged to receive My summons and join the Celestial group of Beings Who have come home "to go out no more".

/" Well, it is done and it is written! There are so many lifestreams who contributed to the wealth of our love in that life. Among them are the be loved Angels, the beloved Gabriel and Michael the beloved Joseph (Saint Germain), the beloved John, Peter and James as well as many of you in this room today. In Our free state, We have not forgotten you dear ones. Bless your hearts, you are all My children! You know, I have a momentum or holding that "Immaculate Concept" (perhaps I gained it the hard way) but what I did for Jesus I have now vowed before God to do for all the ten billion souls of Earth, walking the pathway "Home". I am doing this now for each one with the same intensity with which I held it for My beloved Son. Ah, the crucifixion is not over as long as any man, woman or child is in pain. The · individual crucifixion of every son and

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daughter of man is not so great compared to Our experience, but I promise you that by My faith, My one-pointedness, My ability to hold that vision for you, each of you shall be set free! Thank you, beloved ones, for accepting My prom ise. The feeling of acceptance, bursting forth from your heart-flame, is your freedom! Even while you believe that your individual cross is heavy, even while you believe that the nails in your hands and feet are painful, I am seeing the resurrected, living Christ of each of you bursting from the tomb of your human consciousness. I am seeing that Christ stand forth transformed as I did for My Son on the hill of Golgotha.

Can you withstand that vision, that hope, that faith? Ah, no! You know, a mother cannot be convinced that her child is not worth while. No real mother can accept even in the face of physical action, proof in fact that her child is not good at heart for within herself she knows the perfection of his real Self. For you all, I stand before the Sun in Heaven; I stand in the Halls of Karma, before the Karmic Board; I stand before every Being, Power, Force, Virtue, Law and Activity of the Universal One and refuse acceptance of the ability or capacity of any lifestream to sustain evil indefinitely. My light and My love shall draw forth the good from within all lifestreams as My light and love through Jesus did draw forth His mastery! (Audience arose to express gratitude for this service) . Thank you, beloved ones/4d won't you be seated please?

If there is one thing is this world I love to do, it is to make life comfortable. You know, in Our activities of healing through the Temples, I always instruct the Devas and the Brothers and Sisters Who assist Me to first make the energies of the physical bodies as comfortable as possible. You see, the consciousness is not receptive to healing or any grace or virtue while the body is resentful or in discomfort. Therefore, I would advise you in dividually (particularly when you come to class) to make your bodies as comfortable as possible but in an alert and positive way-not in lethargy! Then you will receive the blessing that is Ours to give.

We are in a Cosmic moment today and just briefly I wish to speak to you about it, asking for the contribution of your energies. As I have told you previously, it is My privilege to create the physical heart for each child that is to take on a physical embodiment. The Temple of the Sacred Heart in which both Jesus and I work, is dedicated to drawing around the soul (with the help of the Body Elemental) that substance which will make

Threefold Flame of Life. We use the most perfect substance of the lifestream to create that heart. At this time, all seven of the Great Lords of Karma are present in the Halls of Karma and to Them is being presented the soul of every life-

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stream who can be admitted to incarnation on the Earth plane within the next twelve-month period. From these souls presented, the Karmic Board will choose those who are to have the opportunity to re-embody. For every soul who is chosen, two will be denied. That is the Law.

Under the ordinary activities of life heretofore, the choice has been made without regard to the preponderance of spiritual lifestreams. It is made quite impersonally. However, now the Beloved Master Morya and other interested Masters, have evolved the idea of asking the Lords of Karma for the opportunity of bringing into embodiment spiritually awakened people who will take the vow of obedience to the Beloved Sanat Kumara before they incarnate. These people will then work throughout this current period to set themselves free; to bring an understanding of the Great White Brotherhood to mankind at large; to co-operate

and to serve life generally. This petition was pre sented by the Beloved Serapis Bey last evening, for which I am eternally grateful to Him. Your decrees, your songs, your calls to the Great Karmic Board for the granting of this petition will bear great weight and We are hoping by this coming Sunday to have some answer from that August Body. May I digress here for a moment? You see, Our love for Serapis Bey is very great. As the Head of the Luxor Brotherhood in Egypt, He gave both Jesus and Myself great assistance. Previous to the public ministry of the Beloved Jesus, My Son and I returned to Egypt and We spent three years at Luxor. At this time We both became Masters of the final Initiation which is the partic ular interest of the Luxor Retreat, i.e., the con scious removal of the current of life from the body and the returning of it again through the con trolled breath. This was done to prepare Us for Jesus' supreme test. Being so very close to My Son, I also took the Initiation so that My con sciousness might be one with His during that expenence.

Just to show you the immensity of the program -there are over three hundred million souls apply ing for re-embodiment! That may seem a lot to you but, remember, there are around seven bil lions of souls always waiting at the Gates of Birth! At the present time, there are in the neighborhood of three billion souls incarnated. The law is that approximately one-third of the ten billion souls belonging to this planet are in embodiment on the Earth at one time; while the other two-thirds are out of embodiment, living in the Inner Realms. So three hundred million is not such a large per centage of seven billions. The entire seven billions are scheduled to come through the Gates of Birth before the current twenty-year period is up. You can see this is a tremendous task.

At this time, the three hundred million are mov ing in a slow procession before the Lords of Karma. These must be sorted out, separated ac-

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cording to consciousness and examined. This ex amination is performed in groups where the con sciousness is not illumined enough to allow them to go into bodies spiritually awakened. However, this is done individually where the lifestream is spiritually awakened and where they are to be of potential service to the race. If the petition of the Beloved Serapis is passed (referred to before) then there will be a meeting in the month of May when these people will be offered opportunity at Inner Levels to take the Oath of Obedience to be loved Sanat Kumara. This should be a magnifi cent activity if it is accomplished. If you people in the outer world will have your classes at the time this is done, we are bound to feel the gratitude of the Great Law.

From now until Sunday, if you can find the time and energy to use, if you will make the calls for dispensations from the Karmic Board to allow into embodiment only spiritually evolved souls, it will help the Earth tremendously.

Then, of course, there will be the great need for calls for these incoming souls because, as you see, they will be more advanced spiritually than their parents. If the advanced lifestreams are given the preponderance of the vote, there will not be enough sufficiently illumined parents to guide and guard them so We will have to ask for purification and illumination of consciousness in the homes into which these "new" children come. I thank you so much for your interest in this very im portant matter.

Now, this morning, as your attention has been turned to our blessed Jesus and to Myself, I bring to you Our love and gratitude for your depth of feeling, your magnificent harmony and for this ex quisite force-field. It is a lovely thing to be wel comed and the welcome in your feelings which you have given to those. of Us Who are ministering to you, makes possible the radiation We pour to mankind everywhere today. Thank you and good morning!

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June, 1954

(On: Importance of developing power of concentration to hold

"Immaculate Concept" for self and others; Mary's offer to help

us hold "Immaculate Concept" for each other; Mary's petition to

Karmic Board for mercy to incoming lifestreams.)

BELOVED children! How long has each one of you been a child of My Own heart, a part of My every thought and feeling and consciousness! How long have I loved you, watched over you and held for you that same "Immaculate Concept" that I was privileged to hold for the Beloved Jesus many centuries ago.

In the Initiations through which I was privi leged to pass before I was given the opportunity of accepting the role of the Mother of the Beloved Jesus, I had to prove before the Karmic Board, the great Lord Maitreya and the Spiritual Assembly, that I was able to hold the concentrated Image of His Divine Being. This I had to hold, no matter what the pressure of energy might be, directed at Me from within or without. For three long hours at Inner Levels I held that concept! Every kind of pressure, even from the Elohim, was directed into My mental and emotional bodies. This was an at tempt to divert My attention most subtly, even into other constructive activities af life and light,

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which would cause Me to relinquish that perfect Image, required to be held by Me during the en tire period when I bore the Master Jesus. This also had to be held during the long years after His birth, awaiting the hour of His trial and His ulti mate victory.

I have been chosen to come to you to ask you, among other things, to endeavor to develop a power of concentration upon one activity of the Sacred Fire, one exercise, one spiritual develop ment, until you can carry it into form through thought and feeling. The Brothers Whom you have invited from the heart of the Teton are re quested once in every twenty-four hour period, to meet together and report to your own Beloved Master Saint Germain upon your progress, and upon Their association with you. Then, counsel ling with Them, Saint Germain endeavors to give Them the assistance They require to bring into your worlds individually the radiation and the pressure of good which is the gift of the Teton. This is given you in return for the gift of your light offered in co-operation with the Ascended Masters, to bring forth from the Cosmic Law gifts, grants and blessings to life. The one (almost unanimous) report to Saint Germain from the Brothers concerning you was that there is a need for more consecutive concentration by each student.

The eagerness in your hearts; the sweetness of your souls; the earnestness of your spirits ( when so

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many new activities enter into your conscious minds) , cause you to flit from one delight to an other. Now I am going to ask you to endeavor (with my assistance if necessary) to concentrate your energies for just a little time upon the de velopment of reverence and gratitude for the gift of life. Endeavor to concentrate upon the feeling of reverence toward the Master Presences and the Beings and Powers Who carry that light and an extreme devotion to the God of all life. Make an earnest invocation that there may be revealed to you (without the slightest question of a doubt) the specific reason for your individual being. If you can concentrate upon this lesson well and learn it, you will go home richer in spirit, more peaceful in heart and be of much greater service to Those of Us who live but to carry the Light to all mankind.

In My activities at Inner Levels, I work with the Elementals. In Our Temples We teach them how to embody form and the Elemental becomes the form of the flower, the form of the grass or of the blossom. His power of concentration determines how long that blossom, that flower, or other mani festation will remain in the physical appearance world as a blessing to life. In the beginning it is difficult for them to concentrate their sweet, small energies, for they mirror first one form and then another. Their form changes with every passing activity which their vision contemplates. Beloved

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ones, you are in much the same condition men tally and emotionally.

Through My momentum and power of concen tration, it is my desire to bring to you the pressure of My energy and whatever assistance My life stream can offer. I bring this to help you draw the Immaculate Conception of your own Godhood in that same glorious design that was cut out of the Universal Light by Helios and Vesta when you first came into being. I will help you t0 hold that Christ Design, enabling you to pass the Flame through your own feeling world, until the hour when your flesh-obedient to the thought and feeling form of the "Immaculate Concept" held in your consciousness-manifests the perfection of the Christ Estate. Then you stand revealed the Master Presence for that, beloved children, is your su preme destiny!

There are millions of souls about to incarnate in the coming year and many of them have a karma of great weight. The physical bodies they will wear will be fashioned out of the elemental sub stance which they have used life after life and age after age. Heavily charged with discord, that substance will not be wholly comfortable for them to enter. Therefore, as the great Karmic Board meets this night, it is My joy and My privilege to petition the Council on behalf of every lifestream who is to incarnate this year. I shall ask that the destructive karma accumulated through the ages may be consumed cosmically and that each one

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might come into embodiment in a form of dignity, beauty, harmony, purity and balance. I am asking for your assistance and for the energies of your own individual and collective worlds on behalf of these incoming spirits. I have asked the Angels Who are part of My Spiritual Court to draw those souls who are to incarnate this year, or who will try to secure opportunity for such incarnation, into the atmosphere over the Teton. I have told you elsewhere, that for every three who endeavor to secure a body, two are denied and one receives form. There are some three hundred million such lifestreams hoping to secure Earthly embodi ment. Through such opportunity they hope to develop and master the control of energy and vi bration; to finish their long journey upon the planet Earth; to write their names in the Book of

dom. From those of you who are already aware of mothers with child, I ask special assistance as Our · petition is presented to the Karmic Board. Ask that the karma of these individuals may be at least mitigated and that no lifestream be forced to come into embodiment in a distorted form or without full use of all the faculties of mind and conscious ness.

Each of Us in the Ascended Master Octave is dedicated to some particular and specific activity and service. Individually and collectively, as you develop and mature, you also will find yourselves specializing more and more. You will find your-

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selves drawing the energies from primal life, qual ifying them with a specific radiation to bless life. Thus you become specialists in the radiation of healing, purification, illumination, education, pre cipitation and all the other various activities which will benefit and bless the race. In order for you to develop and mature these faculties which enable you to draw forth that primal substance, passing the energy of your feeling world through it and giving it a specific God quality, you must have the characteristic of spiritual concentration. In order to gather a momentum of any quality to be used as a specific blessing to the race, life essence must re ceive a rhythmic charge from the feeling world which is the qualifying agent of each lifestream. If you should choose to stay all day with the presiding Master of that day,* you could ask that particular Master to assist you in qualifying those energies in your own aura with His quality and power of radiation. Thus you can become ac quainted with the various Masters' radiations and become sensitive to the pressure and direction of each specific Ray. This will signify to you which

Each of the seven days of the week receives consecutively

the radiation of each of the Seven Chohans of the Rays, i.e., Sunday, El Morya; Monday, Kuthumi; Tuesday, Paul the Venetian; Wednesday, Serapis Bey; Thursday, Hilarion; Friday, Jesus; Saturday, Saint Germain. In this regard, it would be very helpful to the student if he would try to wear at least something in the color of the Ray corresponding to the Master of the day. This helps to keep the individual reminded of the concentration he is endeavouring to hold. (For further informa tion on above, we refer you to our Book "The Seventh Ray".)

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Master Presence is radiating through you at any particular time. Students upon the Path who have passed through the metaphysical stage of develop ment, must come to a place where they recognize vibration in itself and are not required to depend upon form for confirmation of the heart acceptance of the Master Presence. This requires great bal ance, beloved ones, and it requires a great stillness in your heart. It also requires the silence of your lips and that you "tell no man."

Spiritual pride is one of the most subtle of the tests as well as one of the most subtle of the sins manifest in individuals who are walking the path above the mass mind. Spiritual pride is often manifested in using the lips to convey to others private heart experiences which should be pon dered and developed within the self. Through ra diation these should be made manifest in works and not words. I say this with very great kindness, beloved ones, because in the beginning of spiritual development your inner faculties are very tender. They are like the first shoots of a plant above the surface of the Earth in the Springtime and they require the protection of great wisdom and solici tude. I tell you, no one loves the growth, the de velopment and expansion of your own light in the unascended realm as much as yourself. In enthusi asm, in spiritual zeal, or subtle pride, when you en deavor to share newly experienced ecstasies, you not only lose the benefit within yourself but you arouse jealousies and unhappy feelings in others.

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These often keep a very promising "shoot" from developing and maturing to a point where your words need not confirm your spirituality but rather, your very being and radiation, the very perfume of the developed quality, radiation or gift is manifest to all.

I, Myself, passed through that test when the Be loved Gabriel spoke to Me. I shall never forget the hour of His coming when He conveyed to Me the Truth that through My body would come the physical form of the Beloved Jesus, who would be The Messiah. It was required of Me to tell no man; to ponder this confidence and to keep it in My heart. I did this for many, many months. Even after the birth of the Baby; even through Our flight into Egypt; even through His early grow ing years, though the pride of a mother might seek to tell (even in confidence) the priests of the Tem ple that they should be careful of such a sacred and beautiful Baby, the wisdom of the Law was such that I could not do this. I could not subject His tender Self to the energies that would be unleashed were My lips to even intimate that which I knew within My heart. Joseph and I often talked to gether about this as We watched Him play but We told no one else. Jesus told you, from within His Own consciousness, He drew forth the remem brance of His Own great Guru, Lord Maitreya. He, Himself, told no man! He grew and truly waxed strong. When He had returned from His visit to India where He had received from the Di-

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vine Director those certain currents and those cer tain affirmations which were required to set Him free, it was not necessary for Him to speak! He was the Christ! John the Baptist proclaimed it and all the men and women of spiritual strength in Judea knew it!

Then another great sin, another most subtle ac tivity attacked Him. This was the subtle type of sin that destroyed the Temple of Atlantis and Lemuria-spiritual arrogance. The arrogance of the priesthood who, versed in the "letter" of the Law (having lost the love of the Law through their spiritual superiority) , helped to destroy the Christ manifestation to all outer appearance. So it is in the life of every man. He progresses up the Path; comes out of the darkness into the Light; accepts the Masters and walks forth. Then the subtle tests endeavor to destroy that for which he has labored for ages. May the God of Light and Life keep you, each one, humble in your knowledge, as you re ceive more and more understanding of the Law. May you have a greater and greater comprehension of the powers that act in the Inner Realms. As you begin to draw forth through your own body those miracles and marvels of the manifestations of Light, may your humility increase; your love in tensify; your selflessness manifest; until there is nothing between you and the Ascended Christ Presence at the hour of your complete Victory. Then your Ascension is at hand!

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As the Great Ones are now bringing the be loved incoming souls before the Karmic Board, the Lords of Karma have chosen to stand while the Lady Masters, the Beloved Meta and Myself are also drawing here the prospective parents of all those who will be privileged to bring these chil dren into birth. As they stand thus and as I send My call to the Karmic Board, may I request that you please join with Me in asking for the relief and release of these lifestreams from karma of ev ery kind before they come into embodiment. I shall now make My petition to the Karmic Board, which you might care to hear:

'l" "Lords of Karma! Beloved Ladies and Gen men of the Karmic Board! I, Mary, Mother of the children of Earth, who fashions the heart of every lifestream that takes embodi ment, stand before you now on behalf of those about to take incarnation within this twelve-month period. I have stood in the Sacred Heart Temple with these spirits. I have looked upon their karma builded through the ages. I have fashioned with My own hands, out of the very best of the es sence which the Body Elementals could offer, the Sacred Heart of each one. I say to You, 0 Merciful Lords of Love and Light, the gar ments which they must wear are not fitting for gods and goddesses! They are not fitting for beautiful, spiritual beings who, within the course of this next eighteen-year period,

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will endeavor to set free the Lord of the World, Sanat Kumara.

The mistakes and sins of many ages have been written deeply into the energies of their etheric bodies and into those flesh gar ments that would be woven by the Builders of Form within the mothers of the race. On behalf of these spirits about to take embodi ment-these who had the spiritual honor (during the Month of May 1954) of stand- ing before the great Sanat Kumara Himself and in My Own Presence, pledging the three fold Flame of Life a vow of obedience-I petition You. As they have taken that vow and as a balance for that voluntary bend ing of the knee, the humbling of their pride, the acceptance in the freedom of their inner bodies of the existence and presence of the Spiritual Hierarchy, I make the request this night for good, whole, clean, pure flesh bodies for these children. I ask for bodies with eyes too pure to behold iniquity; with lips which will speak only words of love and light; with limbs firm and strong; with bodies, living temples through which blazes love and light; with brains well balanced to receive the directions of the Christ Self; with every organ in its perfect place and in perfect functioning order. I ask this in the Name of life and in the Name of the Ascended Jesus Christ, I am

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willing to offer on the altar of the Karmic Board whatsoever of My personal energies, whatsoever of My time, whatsoever of My very Self is required, to pay any balance that you do not find within their acceptance of the vow to serve Sanat Kumara! Great Lords of Love and Light! The incom ing children are the hope of tomorrow. Give them garments that they may occupy in ease and peace! Give them g·arments sensitive to their own Holy Christ Selves, that the Christ Self through them may take full command from the time they are born!

Give them, 0 Great Lords of Life, the fullness of the Mercy of Kwan Yin! Oh, Beloved Goddess of Opportunity, newly-crowned Queen of Heaven! I speak to You as My Successor! I ask opportunity for the incoming souls-opportunity for each one! Grant Thou this as My last gift as I close My reign and as You become the Shining Queen of Heaven. Oh, Portia! Portia! Child of Love! Child of Justice! I, Mary, speak to You! I rest My case in Your sweet hands!"

Thank you, beloved ones for your assistance. As the feeling of devotion which has been charged with My energy fills the atmosphere, let your own sweet energies, coupled with My humble petition, do what they may! Thank you and good morning. itlnurh :!lnry

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October 1, 1954

(On: More about holding "Immaculate Concept"; Description of "Compound", "Sleepers' Realm" and Earth-bound; Mary's petition to Great Karmic Board for assistance to these Realms and assistance for incoming children) .

EARLY beloved and blessed children of the One Eternal God! How grateful I AM to be the bearer of good tidings of great joy into your worlds and into your consciousnesses; to bring a "lift" to your sweet spirits and hope to your worlds for accomplishment which has stirred the hearts of the Heavenly Hosts.

Beloved ones, do you know what it means to be the bearer of good tidings? Do you know what it is to have lips that always carry words of comfort, confidence, hope and faith, as well as feelings that always convey the radiation of grace and blessed ness so that everywhere you move upon the panet Earth the world is the richer for your presence? That is the state in which We abide-a most com fortable one, a most glorious and happy one! In this way one becomes a "Grail" through which the unsullied spirit of the Universal First Cause may flow and radiate forth to bless life everywhere. I am always so grateful to the Source of Life the great Father-Mother God of the Universe, for

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the opportunity of being an outpost of His gra cious Self and of His gracious Complement. I ask always that through My radiation, Being and world, I may magnify the Lord and magnify His gifts to the people of Earth or to the Inner Realms where I abide; magnifying always His gracious ness, His kindness, mercy and His Ever-Presence. For this I was born and have Being and for this do I yet live to minister to those who wish to know the Lord. In that "knowing," touching the hem of My garment, they find freedom-freedom of mind, of body and of spirit.

Today I bring to you My life, in the Name of , My Lord, the glorious Healing Flame from the Heart of the Universal and the mighty peace that does surpass the understanding of the mind, as well as all of those virtues of which you so much desire active possession, that they may be a spiritual nour ishment for you. I am giving you these blessings since you no longer desire to magnify the things of the world (the shadows of human creation) but desire at last to magnify the magnificence of your Presence and the glory of your Divine Plan, stand ing revealed God-Master, in dignity and in light. Beloved ones, for many, many ages My particu lar evolution has had to do with the power of holding the "Immaculate Conception" as the phrase is used in the Orthodox world. I would like to discuss this briefly before I share with you some of the magnificent activities taking place tor night. I ask you to be My guests, entering into

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these Inner Spheres and there with Me use your own sweet energies to help Us in Our Cause. So, if you will bear with Me as I digress for a moment to that subject which is dear to My heart, I shall proceed. If you choose individually to apply this same power of concentration, it will bring you great freedom!

Your consciousness is your work-room; your consciousness is the "cup" which is created by everything that you know and experience in the mental, emotional, etheric and physical worlds. Beloved ones, many of your consciousnesses are like homes that have not been lived in for many years. You know what it looks like when the chairs are shrouded, the cobwebs gather and when the various solidified concepts and thought-forms of the years have settled down. The consciousness then just externalizes that which you have ac cepted by use, over and over again. Now as a Mother I come to you to give a complete house cleaning; to sweep out all of that solidified con sciousness of distress, limitation, age, financial lack and to help you set up a beautiful new home into which you may invite the Christ Spirit. Will you help Me now in this joyous experience? Long before I took the Ministry in which I was to mother the beloved Jesus, I had to learn to con trol the power by first creating a perfect thought form from Universal light. I had to learn to ener gize that thought-form by the rhythmic release of love to keep it alive so that it did not disintegrate.

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Then I had to protect it by My Own ethericradia tion from the intrusion of external forces that would seek to destroy it. That substance is very pliable, easily returning to the unformed unless it is held by the mental body and nourished rhythmically by the feelings. So through many, many ages in the great Temples of the Elementals, first I learned and then I taught how to create a perfect form. I learned how to pour the feelings once an hour rhythmically (or once a day, whatever rhythm was set up) into that form. Then I learned how to hold a heart around it-that heart made of etheric substance so that the thought-form could , not be dissolved by pressures from without. At the time when We were given the opportunity to vol unteer to help in the great Christian Ministry, this training enabled Me to apply to Lord Maitreya for the great honor of becoming the Mother and the Guardian of the Christ. In a previous address I have told you in detail how I was required to hold the "Immaculate Concept" (the perfect Divine Form) in My mind for three hours, nourishing it by My love and by My feelings. During this time there was directed at Me from the Great Initiator, every conceivable concentrated activity, to try to take My attention, not only by disturbing pres sures but by the things I loved most; anything to draw my attention away from the holding of that Concept. At the end of that three hours, I was given the opportunity to become the Mother and Guardian, the Protector of our blessed Jesus. After His birth, many might think that I could then have relinquished that strong guard-the "Immaculate Concept" of that body, of that mind and of those sensitive and beautiful feelings. How ever, it was even more necessary then to hold the guard. You see, in the infant and very early stages of growth, the Holy Christ Self of an individual is not yet in enough control of the vehicle to hold the guard for him. Then, you know, I was un ascended! People look back through the ages at the "glamour" of yesterday and this human tend ency has made the early Christian Dispensation take on an unreal aspect. Yet when We lived; when We walked along the dusty roads; when, with gratitude We refreshed ourselves from the cold well; when We protected Ourselves as best We could from the heat of the mid-day Sun, We were people like yourselves, with consciousnesses and senses open to the mass mind. In those days, We saw many, many activities of the outer world, many distresses of the flesh and of the mind from which the West is now protected by the progress of civilization. We saw many dying with leprosy, bodies withering away on every hand and poverty, the like of which you do not see in the West today, although you still see it in India and the East. All of these things were before Us, not only before Our eyes but Our constant attention. In that type of world We lived, Joseph and Myself, and en deavored to raise This Boy without allowing Him to register this discord in the very sensitive vibra-

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tory action of His consciousness. If such imperfec tion did register on His consciousness and His feelings connected with it, then that imperfection would be externalized as a soiled spot on the gar ment of One Who must remain immaculate in order to draw the Cosmic currents necessary, when His Ministry began.

When We went into Egypt We were subject there, dear people, to a great many experiences which tested Our faith and power of concentration, even beyond that which We knew in Our natural home environment. Eatly one morning, I remem ber walking out of our small dwelling and looking toward the River Nile where Jesus was wont to play. I saw that beauti.ul Boy in close proximity to the largest crocodile I had ever seen! The great creature's mouth was open. For a moment I confess I thought that perhaps this was the end of Our dream and yet I did not allow myself to let fear register-at least not for more than an instant! Then as I stood, do you know I realized that creature was smiling-a great, toothy grin and I was relieved. I did not even go down to the water to suggest that My Boy come back to a place of comparative safety. I do confess, however, that I remained near the door, as I looked upon them, holding the thought of His God protection until finally the crocodile went back into the water and swam away. My dear Son, feeling nothing unusual about the experience, waved to me and went on His way.

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When one has a Cosmic mission, it is difficult to keep from over-solicitude and yet maintain that terrific Inner concentration and fidelity to the "Immaculate Concept". It was difficult to see that Small Child going through the rigorous disciplines at Luxor. Those of you who have been in Egypt know something of the heat of that country during the day and know how carefully young children are guarded, especially during the hours of high noon when the Sun is at its zenith. Yet, from early morning until well into the afternoon (when the Sun was setting) I had to abide outside those Tem ple Courts waiting for Him. Sometimes, when My Son would come out, there would be beads of per spiration on His forehead and deep circles under His eyes. He was taking disciplines from which full-grown men and women have shrunk-yet it was not for Me to interfere. It was My obligation to give Him complete freedom and yet, in that freedom, to hold the Concept in which there was no shadow of fear.

When We recognized that He had received His Own illumination, then Joseph, Jesus and I found the trinity of action in magnifying the Lord of Life, magnifying the power of God in every cir cumstance-even the smallest one-whether it was the requirement of bread for our table or the beast of burden to carry us back to Jerusalem and Judea. We always put it completely into the hands of Our Lord and, together, a small family unit, we magnified the Lord's Presence in the homely

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things of living. Jesus grew in that sense of com radeship with the Fathet-God and in a great sense of relaxation in His Ever-Presence. It will be of such tremendous benefit and help to you if you can come to that same sense of "rest in action", in a realization of the Prest~nce of God, ready to help you in your smallest-your slightest requirement, as well as in the greatesr crises of your life. Re member, dear children, the comradeship and friendship between you and your own individual ized God Presence (the "Mighty I AM") estab lished in the homely tasks of life, build the momentums for you. Thus, in the great crises, you already have the faith, the fidelity and the con stancy of His Mighty Self. I never laid a table, never swept a floor, never planted a flower without so doing in the realization that it was the life of God that enabled me so to do and I always did it to the glory of God! Everything We did all through Our lives was done in His Name, to His glory and by His power. You, too, do everything by His power but you must continually remind the outer conscious mind of it. When you so re mind yourself enough, you will come to realize that God is not far off but is the animating prin ciple of your very self!

Now, tonight, we have another opportunity to address the Great Karmic Board. I have been mak ing a petition to Thern for some time for the assistance to be given in-coming lifestreams. You know, I am concerned with the creation of the

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heart-the Sacred Heart-in which lives the Im mortal Three-fold Flame of Life within each physi cal form. The body itself is drawn around that precious Sacred Heart. At the Inner Levels, we have a magnificent Temple of the Sacred Heart. In the Springtime, after the individuals have been chosen by the Karmic Board to incarnate within the next twelve months, all these souls come to Our Temple. We have a beautiful ceremony of benediction and blessing. Then, together, each soul and I take the best part of the elemental substance that the soul has to its credit and We fashion the heart which will be the Chalice for the Flame in the new Earth body. Then these indi viduals wait in the Inner Realms until they are called for re-embodiment. Within the year con ception takes place on Earth for each one and they come into the world of form in physical birth. I have done this for many, many years and I would like to say that the souls who have been free in the etheric body, enjoying the sojourn in the Heavenly Realms of such perfection, do not enjoy being encased again in the imperfect physical elements which they have earned. Some of these are very, very low in vibration and the physical bodies into which some souls are called to incarnate would not be fit habitation for animals, as you know. It has always been a source of sadness to me to witness the high birth-rate of those who are maimed, mentally retarded and those who are without the. full use of their mem-

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hers and faculties. I have asked over and over again for some way by which the Karmic Board and Great Cosmic Law could allow Us to free souls from this necessity of coming back into such terrific distortions of mind and body. In July of this year (1954) I again presented My Petition of which I have just spoken. Now, in accord with the magnificent activities taking place at Inner Levels in which your energies are joined with Ours, I am going to ask for assist ance from the Karmic Board again tonight. I would like to take you now-just for a little while -into the Inner Realms. It rests you and it is also a training in the projection of your consciousness from place to place. We are quite amazed how clearly you can picturize that which We describe and how vitally you act in those Spheres to which We bring you.

Last evening, Beloved Serapis Bey brought an Initiation to each of you. Some of you sensed it deeply and some of you sensed it only in your inner bodies. Up to this time, the extent of your participation in the gTeat work of the Universal progress of the System had been to call for the gTanting of Petitions and to make up various Petitions yourselves. Now the Great Sanat Kumara has said that you have achieved enough spiritual maturity to be able to contemplate the activities at Inner Levels-activities that must be set into motion by your calls, to grant such a Petition.

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the other evening and your rendition of the songs and decrees, together with the magnificent calls for the releasing of dispensations, the Great Karmic Board said: "We shall test these people. Tell them exactly what is involved in this Petition for which they ask and, let us see the enthusiasm with which they will continue in their endeavor." We all waited with bated breath to see whether the glamor of an abstract Petition would appeal when it meant actual work and effort. I am happy and grateful to tell you that your splendid re sponse has brought smiles to the Karmic Board, happiness to Our hearts and great hope to Us for the fulfilling of these Petitions.

I would like to tell you that, in answer to your earnest calls, twelve beings from the "Compound" have applied to enter the Halls of Karma and take their judgment. These are individuals whose rebel lion was so great that they preferred to remain in the Compound rather than take the suggestion, the discipline or the necessary application to work on their own creation. They have remained there in a state of sullenness, previously refusing to enter the Halls of Karma for-how many years-I would not tell you!

The Messengers from the Karmic Board are very beautiful Beings. They wear the deep royal purple of Saint Germain and have emblazoned across the breast the Scales of Divine Justice in per fect balance. They wear the seven-pointed crown upon Their heads and They carry with Them

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Scrolls bound in purple, which Scrolls are the sum mons to the soul to appear before the Karmic Council. These Karmic Brothers, as Serapis told you last evening, meet every soul that passes from the body. The conscious chela who steps through the veil without even stopping to look back, us ually takes the Scroll immediately from the hand of the Messenger. These are the workers who wish to get their new assignments and get back into the activities of a new Earth embodiment as quickly as possible.

Then We have the great Realm of the "Sleep- ers". When people pass from the body in an ex hausted state, they go out into this beautiful Realm in the Higher Octaves. This Realm was provided by the Great Law as a place of rest be tween embodiments for certain lifestreams who needed it. Some people who go out in great shock; some who pass out through violence and a great many who go out in war conditions, en ter this Realm for a period of time. When We go into this Realm in consciousness, just a little later this evening, you will see the tenderness and solicitude with which the Angel Devas watch this Realm of the "Sleepers". These Devas pour Their sweet anointing upon the bodies of those who are there and when those individuals awaken, they are given the "vacation period" of which I spoke before. In due time (there is no hurry) the Karmic Messenger will come and these souls

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will receive their call to appear before the Karmic Board.

In the lower Realm of the "Sleepers", you will find those who are seeking escape. As you descend, you will see how the bodies, rather than being life-like as if just in rest and sleep, become more like the atrophied stone in color and there is a resistance to an endeavor or attempt to be awak ened. We shall ask you to help us assist these tonight.

Then We come to the Earth-bound, to whom there comes once in every year one of the Karmic Messengers Who offers the Scroll of opportunity. The Earth-bound have consistently refused this. They are not vicious enough for the "Compound" but they are those who, either by lust, appetite, hate or physical love, are very enamored of the Earth and It's people. They exist on the magnet ism of the living. Many of these Earth-bound souls, after they find that they get no attention from the living, begin to lose interest for nearly always they are strong egotists. When they continue to pass unnoticed in homes where they have been usually the predominate figure, the magnetism weakens and they can sometimes be coaxed into the Halls of Karma.

Tonight, the Karmic Board has asked if you will go with us in consciousness into these Realms and use your energies to make calls for these types of individuals, trying to get some of them to arise and take the Scroll from the Cosmic Messenger. If you

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will just look for a moment into the Halls of Karma, you will see the magnificent doors are open. These Messengers are coming down the steps in beautiful purple garments, carrying these Scrolls of light. Each Scroll is an opportunity for some individual to meet the judgment of his own life stream; be assigned to a period of expiation of his errors made on Earth and given a chance to receive an understanding of the Law in some School or Temple at Inner Levels, free-will being the "order of the day". These being unascended, We have thought that your energies might do for them that which We cannot do Ourselves. First We shall enter the Realms of the "Sleep ers," for these are the least difficult to be handled. You will see that each one is lying on a lovely couch and that Flame flowers that never die, adorn the pillow. These flowers become blankets of roses, gardenias, violets, etc., covering these sleep ing forms. As you watch in this Realm of "Sleep ers," you will see the Devas Who guard them, rhythmically pouring out the vials of light over their bodies. From time to time a soul will arise from one couch or other, as you arise from sleep in the morning. It will attempt to get it's con sciousness focused and be led by some Angel Deva to the Realm where it will spend its "vaca tion period". We need not be concerned particu larly with these, because they are pliable and qui escent. After a few weeks or months with their

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loved ones, they will willingly take the Scroll from the hands of the Karmic Messenger. Now let us go down to those who have "willed" themselves to sleep. They have willed themselves not to awaken. Here you will see a sight that re minds you of an Egyptian sarcophagus in which the body lies, the form itself looking like stone. There is no warmth there and only the flicker of the Flame within the etheric body keeps them from the "second death". Many have passed into the "second death" from this Realm. Now if you will please sing with sincere feeling, your "Opportunity to Call" to these deep, deep "Sleepers" who are sleeping the sleep of escape, We shall see if they will arise. Around them in circular form, stand the Karmic Messengers with Their Scrolls and tonight "\,Ve shall be grateful if euen one comes from this Realm of rebellion.

(Audience arose and sang "Opportunity to Call", following which Beloved Mother Mary called to the Karmic Board). "In the Name of the Beloved and Holy Jesus Christ, I call to You, 0, Karmic Board! I call to You on behalf of these, the "Sleepers," to accept the energies of these unas cended beings here tonight. Set this energy up in a rhythm every hour until it becomes a Flame, carrying the feeling of how marvelous and won derful it is to serve life. Let that Flame pass through their consciousness until Its enthusiasm stirs each of these souls. Then let them come forth, magnify their Lord, fulfill their destiny and be-

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come God-free". I thank you for your assistance and your calls, beloved friends. I would be so grateful if you would keep up this call individually and collectively when you have opportunity, until there is not one soul who is not eager to face his Lord and fulfill his destiny.

Now, beloved ones, as the great Karmic Mes sengers wait in that Realm of the "Sleepers", We expect activity there tonight. This mighty Cause of Saint Germain is FREEDOM and the impris oned Flame within the hearts of these "Sleepers" desires fulfillment. How would you like to be in a stone prison for a million years, especially when you had a destiny to fulfill? Yet that etheric con sciousness, so rebellious, so unwilling to proceed, refuses to allow opportunity! Tonight I speak di rectly to the Flame in the heart of each of the "Sleepers": "In the Name of the Ascended Jesus Christ and in the Name of the unascended man kind in this room, I have gathered friends for you -friends who will breathe on your heart flame. There is not one lying prone in this Realm tonight who shall not stir and receive opportunity to expiate karma".

Those of you who asked last night (in your feel ings) how Orthodox people can expiate karma out of the body, (when in the outer consciousness they do not know the use of the Violet Flame) , will be interested to know that it is through the estab lishment of Temple worship in the Inner Realms. There they use ordinary prayer force and devo-

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tional singing. This is utilized by the Devas to melt away the karma in this Realm until these people come to a knowledge of the Sacred Fire. These focuses of worship established in the Astral and Psychic Realm are voluntarily entered into by all individuals who have not earned their Ascension. Just as you go to church, every hour if you want to (or perhaps you only wish to go on Christmas Eve or Easter) so do these people, through free will, have access to these focuses. The more karma they burn out through entering into the service there, the quicker are they free to go to a higher Realm and the better Earth life will they receive when they incarnate again. It is just as it is here. The groups are provided and some just cover the minimum of the Law, while some avail them selves of every opporunity. The latter progress more quickly, because through individual appli cation for the good of the whole, the soul rises higher. When the Karmic Board assigns a soul to the Sphere in which to dwell, It also assigns a minimum of service, just covering the Law; but those who are alert take a greater length of time in service and they proceed more rapidly. It is quite individual-the same as it is here. (That question was in your minds last evening and Beloved Serapis asked Me to answer it for you.)

Now we shall pass to the doors of a place that has frightened a good many-the "Compound." Here are those who choose no part of God. These individuals refuse to accept the summons of the

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Karmic Board but were too vital and developed to become "Sleepers". These have been "corralled" so to speak, in the Universe. Here they continue to grumble over their lot although they are ap proached rhythmically (as I have said) with the invitation to appear in the Halls of Karma. These individuals know full well that they have quite a balance to pay to life and feel they may escape by refusing to so appear. As Serapis told you, the Law is that you cannot take a new Earth body until yon have passed through the Halls of Karma; until you have expiated a certain amount of your creation; then you are assigned to a new Earth I ife.

Tonight We are going to try something that has never been done before. \Ve are going to call the blessings of the Great Central Sun on the beings in the "Compound" and upon the Earth-bound. I am going to ask you to join Me in a deep heart prayer that those individuals come forth volun tarily and walk in dignity before the Karmic Board, finding that Tribunal not so fierce as they had anticipated. Then let them get busy in re deeming their discordant creation of the past. Would you please take the song to the "Great Cen tral Sun" this evening?

I speak directly to those in the "Compound" and the Earthbound: "Beloved, you who have refused to accept the invitation of mercy from the hands of the Angel, We love you! We are calling you now to your redemption. We are calling you forth

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to opportunity. For the Earth which once was sweet to you; for the planet which you enjoyed; We ask that your individual lifestreams assume the responsibility of joining Us as ladies and gentle men; join Us in redeeming this Earth; in redeem ing the Elemental Kingdom. There is nothing to fear; there is nothing to hate; there is merely opportunity to use those very great faculties which you have developed through many ages. We have opened the doors of the "Compound" tonight with love and We invite you to accept your invitation from the hands of these Devas, in the Name of the Ascended Jesus Christ, in the name of unascended mankind who have loved you enough to make this call".

Thus do the three Realms-the Realm before birth, the Realm of incarnate life and the Realm after death become one! When that veil is so severed that I may speak to you from above-you who are the bridge to those who are below-it has greatly hastened the progress of the evolution of this System.*

Now We turn to the other side of the scales

EDITOR'S Norn: At the Christmas Class, December, 1954, all

of those in the "Compound" as well as those in the "Sleepers' Realm:" came out voluntarily, took their Scrolls from the waiting Devas and went before the Karmic Board of their own free-will. This allowed the complete dissolution of the "Compound" and the returning of the "Sleepers' Realm" to its original intent, i.e., to be a place of temporary rest for souls needing such assistance between embodiments. From now on, souls will only be allowed to remain in the "Sleepers' Realrm" for one year at a time between physical embodiments.

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which is My activity of life. We come here to the magnificent experience at Inner Levels, after the lifestream has passed through the Halls of Karma. As Beloved Serapis told you, a group is examined and assigned to a Sphere whose vibratory action is comfortable, a city atmosphere or a country one, whatever the person likes best. There the individual abides; proceeds for a certain time mak ing new associations and affiliations; advancing rapidly or slowly according to his own free-will, even as mankind do here. For instance, two souls are born the same minute; one accelerates to the point of the Ascension in one embodiment, while the other retrogresses so that it passes out less ad vanced than it came in.

The time of sojourn at Inner Levels is deter mined by many things. (I cannot tire you to night by too much detail for, much as you enjoy Us, your senses do weary.) Those of you who have served the light have foresworn your time in these Realms, at least for the most part. We are speak ing now of the "average" man.

These people make new friends and in time the etheric body, mirroring that which is around it, gradually throws off the appearance of age and takes on the appearance of those who have dwelt for a longer time in that Sphere. Here they abide until the time comes when the same Karmic Board draws these souls before It. When this Board feels that a sufficient amount of karma has been dis-

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solved and enough time of rest for the souls has been given; when a sufficient amount of spir itual nourishment has entered the lifestream; then come the Messengers from the Karmic Board sig nifying an opportunity for a new physical birth. These Messengers come in the most exquisite light blue-the "Mary blue" which some of you love so much. The Messengers carry with Them the Scroll with the blue upon it. Here again it is somewhat difficult for these souls to accept the Scroll and leave those with whom they have been having such a lovely and beneficial time. Partings are always difficult and the Inner Levels are happy places. Yet, sooner or later, when the Angel in blue appears, the ;oul knows it is time for re-call; time to go back again into the Earth life. Early in the new year, right after Beloved Sanat Kumara brings down the thought-form and goes to Shamballa to design the pattern for the year, then the Board of Karma begins to select the life streams who must incarnate in that year. At the same time, individuals who want to incarnate (who are volunteers) present their petitions. The first few months of the year are engaged in pre- paring a possible influx of lifestreams 1for re-em bodiment. A sifting and sorting goes on and the ones are given opportunity to come in who can best serve the light pattern of the Thought-form for the year. In Divine justice others also are al lowed to come in because of the work they have

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done at Inner Levels and the karma they have ex piated. They have earned this opportunity. There are those sent in also who have the most difficu1t karma to balance.

Then comes My opportunity to bless these souls through the creation of their new heart forms. Just a few months ago, some three hundred mil lion souls who sought re-embodiment, performed a voluntary act in the Temple of the Sacred Heart. They stood before Me and all pledged a vow to Sanat Kumara, each of them offering to do the best they could to serve Him according to their light. Since that time (May, 1954) We have been allowing some of these souls to take embodiment and a great many are yet to take bodies. It is for these remaining ones that I am going to ask the Karmic Board for help, to see that they get better bodies than they have earned.

Now, with your kind indulgence, we will turn our thought to the Karmic Board and I shall make the call. If you will sing to Them, it will amplify My Petition (Audience sang the song "Great Kar mic Board") .

"Beloved Karmic Board! Beloved Portia! and all Those there assembled! I, Mary, speak to You on behalf of the lifestreams about to incarnate upon the planet Earth. I ask because this year, every lifestream who is to incarnate voluntarily took a vow to serve Sanat Kumara well. For this reason I ask · that some special dispensation be

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granted for the purifying of the physical sub stance which the Body Elemental must use to cre ate a vehicle. See that no more children come in this year in distorted forms, feeble-minded or un able to provide the soul with opportunity to ful fill its vow. In the Name of Justice, they must have a mind and brain consciousness through which the soul can function and bodies with facul ties. through which the soul can work. I ask in the Name of Life, in the Name of Mercy, in the Name of God, for the purification of the substance in the bodies of the parents. This substance makes up the flesh garments of these children about to come in and the elemental substance gathered by the Builders of Form must be purified with what ever intensity and power of the Sacred Fire is nec essary. I ask You to see that every soul gets a firm, whole, perfect mind and body through which to function.

Beloved Portia! As the Goddess of Opportunity, this call should come close to Your heart. Can You not grant opportunity to these souls who have offered to serve the King of the World"? Portia speaks: "Beloved Mary! Opportunity is in My hands. Opportunity is now Yours to help. I give this request into Your keeping. You are a Mother, Mary, and You know that the concep tion of the child, held in the mind of the mother, is a great factor in the molding of that form within her body. You know, Mary, the appetites of the

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parents have a great effect upon the Body Ele mental of that infant. Why do you not call to Gabriel Who gave you the "Immaculate Concept" of the God-child? Ask that His flaming substance enter the consciousness of every mother with child and every woman about to conceive. Coupling Your "Immaculate Concept" with hers, you hold that immaculate pattern in her mind and that pur ity in her feelings. Life will respond, Mary-it al ways has and it always will!"

Mother Mary: "Thank you, Beloved Portia. Be fore this night has fled, Gabriel shall stand beside every woman who has conceived and every poten tial mother. We shall direct that "Immaculate Con cept" into the mind. Is there not something that can be done, Blessed Queen, for the elemental substance the soul has earned?"

Portia answers: "Beloved Mary, Our Lord Maha Chohan (the Great Intelligence governing all ele mental life) will no doubt command that life back into its original purity. He gives the first breath. \Vhy do You not ask His assistance at the time of conception rather than birth? Then, with His giv ing this assistance, coupled with My Beloved's (Saint Germain) Violet Fire, let Us see what can be done".

Mother Mary: "Beloved Portia! I am Your Sister and Your Servant! Great Queen of this New Age, tonight these unascended lifestreams have gathered here and listened to Us converse one with the other. I am asking them to send their

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love to You as well as to the entire Karmic Board through their simple song 'Immaculate Concep tion'; then to send that Immaculate Conception into the mind of every pregnant woman and all who shall conceive this year." (Audience sings) Mother Mary continues: "We offer this en ergy to You, 0, Karmic Board. It is the life of unascended beings. Looking deep into their hearts, You will see that everyone here, without reservation, desires that every incoming child shall be free, clean and perfect. Now, Portia, as We stand, I am going to speak directly to Gabriel". Mary speaks to Gabriel: "Beloved Gabriel, Friend of the ages, You Who came to Me in My hour of greatest trial, will You accept the commis sion suggested by Beloved Portia, Queen of the Karmic Board? Will You come with Me to the side of every woman who will give birth and each father who guards that incoming child? Will You help to project and sustain the "Immaculate Concept" in each mind?"

Beloved Gabriel: "Hail, Mary, full of grace! The Lord is still with Thee and always blessed art Thou among all women. I am Thy Servant, as is every Angel, Deva, Cherubim and Seraphim in Heaven. Queen of the Angels, I am Thine to com mand!"

Mary speaks: "We thank You, beloved Gabriel. Now as these blessed ones again sing that song of the 'Immaculate Conception' let Thy mighty Flame go forth, north, east, south and west. Let

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every Angel of Birth, every Builder of Form be alerted and every parent receive the pressure of that contact." (Audience arises and sings) I speak directly to the parents now: "Parents of this race-every one, everywhere! As there comes into your keeping a soul that has vowed to love God, accept the visitation of Gabriel and the love of Mary and bring those children forth in light!"

Is it so strange to participate in activities that en gage the subtle senses? NO! Some sweet day in the not too far distant future, you will work in this way all the time; flashing from planet to planet un der the direction of some great Cosmic Being, giving your vital energies where they are most re quired at the moment. You see, you are no longer Earth-bound-you are quite free. Today you func tioned in the Astral Realm, in the Psychic Realm, in the lower Heavens, and in the Realms of birth -yet your physical bodies did not move from this room. This is a very great service which you rendered here (which will go on all through the night and this week-end) and besides that, beloved ones, it is giving you certain training. I am hoping you can accept it as reality. I am hoping that you can know tonight that some soul has come out from the "Compound" where life has not been known to progress for hundreds of thousands of years! Try to know that some soul will rise from a couch of almost petrified consciousness because of your calls and that some being will be set free

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from the Earth-bound Sphere. Try to realize that somewhere, when a baby cries, its body will be more perfect and its mind more clear because you were here tonight.

Now I am at liberty to tell you that for each one of you here, at least one soul will be released from these various places spoken of above-one for one! Think what that will do for the "Compound"; think what it will do for the Realm of the "Sleep ers"; think what it will do for the Earth-bound; think what it will do for some soul otherwise des tined for a lame body who will now walk in a straight perfect form and have a good mind, be cause you chose to enter this room! If you never did another thing in this embodiment, you have served well tonight.

Thank you for your kind acceptance of My words in your feelings and I shall say "Adieu" in the Name of My Own beloved Son and Myself. Good evening!

1Belnueh :altary cm.other

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Thanksgiving Day, Nov. 25, 1954

(On: Importance of building "forcefields" through group activities; Benefits to incoming children through decrees; More on holding "Immaculate Concept"; Finding of old mill which became first focus of Christian Dispensation. . . .)

BELOVED friends of My heart! I bring to you tonight all the love and devotion with which I once cared for a small child. To you I bring the blessings of this Holy Season as We open the magnificent Cosmic currents which have flowed through your conscious endeavors and dedicated "forcefields" as an open door to bless all the sons and daughters of God who know not yet the way to the Father's Throne.

Your blessed hands, your sweet hearts and your gentle spirits hold open the doors to the King dom. Have you thought of that? Have you real ized in its fullness what it means to magnetize those spiritual currents of energy from above which form a "forcefield"? Through your heartbeat, beloved ones, flows the primal substance of life. Through free-will you have chosen to give that life to the magnetizing of the Angelic Host, the Cheru bic Beings, the Seraphic Kingdom, the Cosmic Masters and Devas and Those individual conscious nesses Who dwell in what has been called for cen-

turies, "The Kingdom of Heaven". These Beings do not concentrate Their energies Earthward ex cept through "conductors". Such "conductors" are consecrated unascended lifestreams who magnetize the Masters' energies and form the open door through which blessings tremendously subtle and currents extremely vibrant enter into the atmos phere and the mental and feelings worlds of man kind. These unusual benedictions could never reach the slower vibrating action of the outer con sciousness if there were not embodied "step-down transformers" in the form of individual conscious nesses who are yet a part of the race. So, each one of you whose vital energies, week after week, month after month, year after year, have magnetized the Presence of the Eternal God-free, has formed a jewel of blazing light in the heart of this great metropolis. From the center of this blazing jewel has flowed forth to the millions of people who live here, blessings, purification and spiritual upliftment of which your dear outer selves will never be conscious until you stand with Me in the God-free Realm. Then you may look back at the record which has been written by your own lives and see the pure energy that has re placed the effluvia of those who yet know not how to control thought and feeling.

Magnificent indeed is the consciousness of an em bodied chela who can even believe in our Presence in this Universe and most blessed are they who, in believing, weave the substance and energy of their

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own lives into an activity which is of benefit to the race. Do you know how many children are born every twenty-four hours within the hundred mile radius covered by the center of your "forcefield"? Do you know how many bodies are fashioned by the Builders of Form? Do you know how many come in with much clearer sight, more perfect hearing and better use of their faculties because of your constant, unbroken, rhythmic calls? Do you know how many children do embody in each year with vehicles and envelopes through which the Holy Christ Self can externalize Its Divine Plan, where otherwise they would have been born idiotic, or in all manner of distress? Is it not worth the use of your life energy, woven into invocation, decree and song? Some day, in your God-free estate, you will look with joy upon those firm bodies and those strong lifestreams (those who are to be the builders of the new era) and you will know that your calls and your invocations, morning after morning, have made possible conditions by which a soul is allowed opportunity to fulfill its Divine Plan in dignity, with head erect, body firm and pure, and mind clear. Otherwise, these same life streams would have been destined to live a whole life through in darkness or confusion. 0, beloved ones, I have fashioned with My Own hands the substance of your very hearts. I have stood each year before all those who are to embody in that twelve-month cycle; I have seen the pitiful elemental substance charged with impurity and

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imperfection through the mistakes· of past lives. Therefore, I can tell you what a mercy it is to these individuals when you call forth the Violet Fire for them. As they hold the best substance they have earned through millions of years of living and offer that to me for a heart-well, as I look upon it and think: "Is this the BEST that soul can offer;" many times that Violet Fire rises from your groups at your call and passes through the substance, even as it is held within the trembling hand of the soul itself. Thus, instead of an impure garment, mercy and the kindness of embodied lifestreams make it possible for Us to give them added opportunity-an opportunity for redemption and service that they would not otherwise have earned. I tell you, then does My heart swell with a Mother's pride for in carnate children who can and do draw and wield the Sacred Fire, sending that Fire forth imperson ally on behalf of lifestreams whom they do not even know exist! It is one thing, beloved, to work for those for whom you feel a close heart-tie, but, to work impersonally for the great body of man kind-that shows the Cosmic nature of your own developed Causal Body and that is the hope of this shadow planet (earth) which We are endeavoring to fashion into Freedom's Star!

Beloved friends of love and light, as the beloved Morya and I close Our year (1954) as Sponsors for mankind, I would like to thank you personally for the opportunity of recording through your ener-

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gies in this "forcefield", a few of the personal memories of My experiences following the passing of My Son into His Eternal Freedom. This gift which you have enabled Me to give to you by opening the door through your love, your magnet ization and your attention, you, in turn, will give to mankind. The "Memoirs of Mary" will become the Thanksgiving gift of your blessed selves to the Earth. I am grateful indeed for this oppor tunity!

During the ministry of the Beloved Jesus, as I have told you briefly, My mission was to hold for

ity. In preparation for this, I had trained many cen turies. In the Elemental Kingdom, between em bodiments, I had taught the Elemental Beings how to hold the pattern of a flower, a tree, a shrub ... I had passed through the Initiations enabling Me to hold a concentrate of thought which no force or distraction from within Myself or from without, could cause Me to dissipate. Previous to earning the right to become the Guardian and the Mother of the Beloved Jesus, I stood (as all do who are to render Cosmic service) before the Great Initiator, Beloved Lord Maitreya, Who is also the Sponsor for your magnificent city. He was the Teacher and Guru of My Son. As I have told you, for three hours at Inner Levels, I held the Divine Image of the Holy Christ against every conceivable directed force which was endeavoring to dissipate that Pat tern. At the end of that Initiation, I was given the

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right to embody and await the coming of My beloved Son.

Throughout My Earth life, as you know, from the age of three on, My whole Being was dedicated and consecrated wholly to God and I prepared for and awaited the hour when My mission would begin in earnest. The Beloved Gabriel (Arch angel of the "Immaculate Concept") in His great kindness, promised to come and flash again into My outer consciousness the reality of the mission I was to fulfill and a picture of the perfection of the Christ. Gabriel had promised to give Me this assistance when I would require His help the most. You all recall the coming of that Great One and the confirmation of the benediction of God which took place before Jesus' birth. During the entire life of Our Master, both Jos eph and Myself remained one-pointed in the hold ing of that "Concept" for Jesus. His senses, you will recall, were most highly developed-his power of sight, his power of hearing, his thought and feeling. Naturally, He was the most sensitive in strument embodied at that time. Through those senses, He could draw either the greatest light or, through connection with the appearance world, He could draw also the shadow which would blot out the final Mastery and victory of His Ascension. So We began from very, very early childhood, teaching Him the story of the "Immaculate Con cept" and teaching him to magnify only good. On the other hand, in every experience where He was in a position to encounter discord, We nullified that by saying together: "Now, we shall not mag nify this. Instead, We shall magnify the power of God-the power of good". He grew up in that at mosphere; that radiation of magnifying the GOOD and giving no power, no sense of reality, to evil. This momentum took Us through even the passing· of Joseph; it took us through the years until Jesus' public ministry was to begin. Then Our ways parted (outwardly), and I devoted Myself to a constant "Novena" (you might say) ; to holding for Him that pattern of the victory of life over death itself.

Ofttimes during those years when He and the disciples were engaged in the public work, I went up to Bethany. There with Mary and Martha I enjoyed a certain peace in the simplicity of the country living. On the outskirts of Bethany, We found an old mill that had been used to grind corn in previous days. I loved to sit there and weave garments for beloved Jesus, tablecloths, napkins and things of that sort. Once each day I would find Myself walking up the small but grassy mound to a great flat-topped rock. There I would spend some hours in deep and earnest communion with the God of Light. There I made the application; there I built the momentum and the pattern on which My Son was to ascend to His God and Mine, in the presence of many people (about 500). In those days, I did not know what I builded, but I sent My love and My gratitude to the God

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of Light and in that rising of the energy from My heart (on what was to become later the famous "Hill of Bethany") I builded the very Ascend ing Flames which were to become the victory of your beloved Master and Mine.

During this period, We thought very little about the time AFTER the victory of the Ascension be cause (as I have told you), We were trained one pointedly upon holding the "Immaculate Con cept" for Jesus. No thought of "self" entered Our minds; nor was there any thought of what We were to do to maintain and sustain the Christian Minis try or the faith of the disciples. This may seem strange to you, but it would not seem so if you had been trained in a Cosmic Current and knew that the victory depended upon the holding of your "Immaculate Concept"; not only for the One you loved but for an entire race through that One.

As I would walk on that grassy hillside, part of My mind recorded this old mill. It had fallen into some disrepair and yet the memory of that old mill was to stand Me in good stead . . . for when John and I walked from the Hill of Calvary to Bethany-O ! that old mill came to My mind as a possible place of refuge and solace. It seemed to Me it could be a focus for the disciples and My self until We could find what We were to do and how We were to do it, through the connection which we had with Our beloved Jesus. Well do I remember Holy Thursday! After the disciples and the Master had finished the "Last Supper" and had gone to Gethsemane, the other ladies and I came and gathered together the linen cloth which I had woven and folded it carefully, knowing in Myself that within a day that cloth would enfold the body of My yet vital, shining and beautiful Son! In a napkin We carefully wrapped "The Cup" and gave it to Joseph of Arimathea for safe keeping. That Cup was to, travel far and before this week-end is spent, I shall tell you of that journey. The Holy Thursday eve ning, after We had straighted up the room so that it might be returned to the landlord in per fect order, I engaged in the most heart-felt prayer of which I was capable, for the next day was to bring to Me the greatest trial of My life. We shall not dwell on that day because it has passed vic toriously.

After We had given to Mary and Martha and those who were to anoint Jesus' body, the frankin cense and myrrh (carefully kept, mind you, from the time of Jesus' birth in a stable many years before), John and I descended the hill into Beth any. There again I held the vigil with the help of the beloved Maha Chohan. I held that vigil through those days while the soul of Jesus, sepa rated from the body, passed through the Psychic and Astral Realms and prepared for the glory of His Resurrection Day.

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Then, strengthening the disciples with My Own faith and with that Inner Light which came to Me from the Master, We began to prepare that old mill for living quarters. James, John and Peter white-washed it, fixing the walls and the roof. Here we established the beginning of the first Christian monastery and cloister, you might say. Here, off and on, We abode for some thirty years. Here, after the Resurrection morning, every day for forty days until the Ascension, the beloved Master Jesus came and spoke to the disciples and Myself. Because of this, after that glorious triumphant victory on Bethany's hill, there were happier and more consecrated lifestreams who entered into that home at the foot of that hill. Then we all prepared to magnetize the living Presence of Jesus and from that simple focus to direct those mighty currents of the risen, victorious Christ through the mental and feeling worlds of all mankind. The story of that service I shall tell you .... Beloved ones, a Dispensation which governs an entire race at the changing of a cycle of time (as it does in each 2000 years)-such a Dispensation is builded on the energies of many and not just one! Even My beloved Jesus, with all the light and power of His Presence, could not have rendered that service alone! Beloved Saint Germain, as He now draws the currents for this New Day, (through these group activities and these Sanctuaries), is performing the same service that the disciples and I rendered in that day. He is doing this by mag- nenzmg those currents of nourishment for His New Era just as we kept the entire Christian Dis pensation going thru the 2000 years of Jesus' reign. It is not the work of one man, one woman, nor even of one Avatar or one Christ. It is the com bined woven energies of many consecrated life streams.

Think you well on the word "consecrated". It means the complete dedication of your mind, your spirit, your soul, your thought, your feeling and of all the organisms of your flesh, to drawing forth that nourishment which is to be the sustaining power for a Dispensation that will grow in mag nificence and glory long after you, humble folk like ourselves, have folded your Earth garments around you and passed from the stage of life. If you could look back at these simple efforts to create a garden and to make livable that habi tation, if you could have looked at the toil-worn hands and the consciousness of those of Us at Beth any, you would be amazed that there ever could have risen the magnificence of the Christian Dis pensation. It is only the glamour of the ages, beloved ones, that has woven around Us a magnifi cence that We did not then possess. We were hum ble folk, as I said, like unto yourselves. Now, sometimes feeling that you have not the worth of a task, let Me say to you that the number of those who NOW stand around the mighty Ray of Saint Germain are far greater than those who stood with Us through the ridicule, through the persecu-

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tion, through the crucifixion and through those days afterward, when We built the foundation in love for the Master Who had come to Us, Who had persevered and found FREEDOM! So, this Thanksgiving morning, on behalf of My Beloved Son; on behalf of Myself; on behalf of the children that come to Earth garmented in whole and perfect bodies, I say: "God in Heaven bless you!" Good morning.

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Nov. 26, 1954

(On: Importance and benefits of group activities; Joy of meeting Jesus on Resurrection morning; Return of Jesus to Mary, John and disciples after Resurrection; Establishing of focus of light which became foundation of Christian Era) .

~ ELOVED ones, do you know what it means

to a city to be given the opportunity of four successive visitations? Also, do you know what it means to give to Me the opportunity to draw from the energies of My world and from those Temples of the Sacred Heart where I serve, those Cosmic currents of Life and Light Eternal? Through your "forcefield", these can then energize the mental and feeling worlds of all the people in this great me tropolis, as well as their physical bodies and the etheric garments.

At Lourdes, as well as at Fatima, there were visi tations but We were able to say very little, since We dealt with the consciousness of children who could not grasp the deeper Law and who were not prepared and ready to understand more than the beauty of the actual visible Presence. Yet, through these Visitations, We were able to anchor into those localities a sufficient Cosmic current which has remained to this day and has made possible the healing and the freeing of lifestreams that

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have been encompassed for centuries in limita tions of their own making. It is time, then, that you who are entrusted with Our confidence, with Our very Presence and with Our instruction, should accept in the deepest recesses of your feel ing, those currents of energy which We bring with Vs and leave as a permanent river of living force. This surges forth from the heart-center of the es tablished "forcefield" and, with a far greater efficacy than the thin stream of energy We have been able to draw forth at the Healing Shrines, it can be directed into your hospitals and asylums, into your homes and into the consciousness of your people everywhere.

Can you realize for a moment the intelligence that is within energy and the power of magnetiz ation that is within your heart? I would like you to think of it for a moment. Within your heart is a magnet and that magnet sustains life within your physical body for as long as your Holy Christ Self desires to have manifestations in this world. A con stant flowing stream of electrons from the Great Source of all life flows into your heart with such rapidity that there is no outer means by which it can be photographed as yet so you might see your own Silver Cord. However, in the near future, there is coming a much greater sensitivity in the photographic world and many of the magnificent things of which We have spoken will be recorded and confirmed to the sight of man. This stream of living light that pours from your Electronic Presence intoyour heart is what you have lightly called your "lifestream". It is exactly that-a river of living, breathing force and intelligence. It is primal life unqualified, awaiting the command of man's free-will to become for him and every one whatever he shall decide to make it. This primal life is already qualified to obey; it is the elemental substance that has taken the command from the Universal to obey the creative principle of man and out of that primal life you have woven your chains and your limitations, even as you have woven the glory of your Causal Body. You have also woven the magnificent momentums upon which We depend to draw mankind again "out of the pit" into the glory and the victory of their own God-free estate!

As this life flows through you, it is yours to com mand. For the most part, according to the caprice of the moment, your thoughts and feelings qualify it and the invisible inner garments which you wear, your sphere of influence, your aura and your Causal Body are a conglomerate mass of the thoughts and feelings of your daily life. Many men have come under the influence of evil. Con versely, many other men and women have come under the influence of a good man or a saintly person and on the impetus of that one individual's magnetized and qualified life, have lived a holy life themselves. In time, they returned to their God-estate. Your individual sphere of influence is important-more important than you realize!

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Some of you, humble of heart and sweet of spirit, feel that the individual self matters little but your sphere of influence and your radiation are all We have with which to work in this world of form. The quality of your sphere of influence can be changed by your conscious application and the conscious qualifying of this beautiful primal light through your feeling world. Then the hem of your spiritual garment becomes an influence for good wherever you move among mankind. Even though you never used your lips to speak at all, just the radiation passing out from your body becomes a healing, raising power and you become "the leaven in the loaf".

Now as you join together in a constructive activ ity, what happens? All of your individual life streams combine, drawing rivers of life flowing from the Presence; all of them join together and, descending, make a great, mighty river of force, magnetized by the heartbeat of each one of you who chooses to come to these magnificent classes and give of your energy. Then as you make invocation to the Great Masters of Light and speak Their Holy Names in word, in song, even in silent visualization, your magnetic heartbeat draws around the river of force (made up of all those who are within the room) a tremendous current from each great Being Whom you drew by thought and feeling. It is exactly as if a little rivulet that had trickled down from the mountain-top by the very first melting of the snow, was caught up then in the great, mighty rush of the mountain torrents when the glaciers melt. That tremendous added impetus then sweeps down into the valley, carry ing the currents of energy and fertilization to the plain.

The magnetic power within a group of un ascended beings to form an open door to the Ascended Masters' Realm, cannot be overempha sized. Beloved Jesus said: "Where two or three are gathered together in My Name (nature), there I AM in the midst of them". Every group of dedi cated lifestreams, whether they are orthodox, meta physical, occult or spiritualistic, who are sincere and deep in their desire to draw forth greater good from the heart of the Universal, magnetizes and draws these Cosmic currents from these glorious Beings. Those currents then flood out from the center of the "forcefields", north, east, south and west. According to the intensity and power of the group, the feeling and sincerity of the leader; according to the energy that is released and the power of concentration among the assembly, is mankind blessed cosmically and bathed in that: radiation of purifying essence.

Your individual sphere of influence, your indi vidual aura, is a conglomerate mass of good and evil. When you join together to form the "force field" for a Cosmic activity, for the radiation of the Ascended Masters and for the magnetization of the Angelic Host, the portion of your personal sphere of influence that is not constructive is muted for

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the moment. The portion which is constructively qualified is emphasized and the great Angel Devas and Builders of Form together weave from the assembly a magnificent pattern. That pattern con ducts the blessings of the group and the blessings of the Beings Who gather in the atmosphere above the meeting place, back into your homes, into your blessed families, into your worlds and into the consciousness of those who need such assist ance.

Beloved children, in My position I hear so many calls for help. If you knew the prayers that come up to Me from this metropolis alone, you would realize how grateful I am to be given this open door and opportunity to bring to your great City this gift of My energy-My life-the river of light which comes from My Presence. To these are added the blessings of the beloved Jesus and of the beloved Angelic Host Who work with Me. We direct those currents through your "forcefield" and then allow that to bless and bless and bless life everywhere. Each one of you who has come and given of your own life to make this oppor~ tunity possible-each one of you is dear to My heart and My gratitude shall flow to you eternally. Will you please remember each evening to con sciously direct back into your own city, your own Sanctuary and your own home, a mighty ray of intelligent life and light substance from this Class? This ray of light substance can duplicate there the same activity which We draw forth here and make it active in those portions of the country from whence you have come. You see, as much as you will personally do for yourselves, you spare Me in the use of My energy. Then My service can be given you in more powerful currents for the puri fication of your inner and flesh bodies. Will you do something for Me tonight? Will you please accept the Presence of My humble Self in your midst with at least as much faith as the pilgrims at Lourdes? Will you accept, deep within your heart, that healing momentum which has be come the hem of My garment? That garment covers this entire building tonight and each one will take as much or as little as he or she may choose, according to the power of his or her ac ceptance. As My gift of Thanksgiving to you, ac cept the substance of the radiation of One who has been your Mother for countless centuries. Accept this into your blessed minds, your bodies and your worlds. Then, beloved children, as your gift to the Beloved Jesus this Holy Season, will you specialize in drawing forth some particular quality to become the spirtual garment which you wear? You can charge your glorious Tube of Light with a particular essence so that as you move through the great metropolis, as you rub elbows with man kind, some of the virtue, consciously drawn forth by yourself, may be absorbed by them. Then the "hem of your spiritual garment" will be a blessing and an uplifting power to life everywhere. This

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would be the greatest of the gifts of the Season to One Who gave of Himself so long ago. Now, turning My attention and yours back to those early years, let us pursue that sweet story of a long ago era. It still lives in My heart as though it were yesterday and lives in many of yours too. Many within this room were part of that drama; part of that joy and part of the heartache. You were part of the despair of Calvary and part of the glory of the Resurrection morning. Deep within your etheric bodies there vibrates the memories of a majestic Being Who walked across Judea and left an example for all mankind that has never been equalled, even down to this present day. Now we come to celebrate His birthday and it is for Him that we prepare our physical and inner bodies to give Him the gift of our very selves, even as I gave Myself to Him before I passed through the gates of birth; before I was to know physical embodiment.

When the Initiation was complete at the close of the three hours on Calvary's hillside, the Beloved John and I walked together down that hill, as I told you, leaving the others to perform the final rites, preparing the body for entombment. We re turned to Bethany-to that blessed Bethany where Jesus and the disciples and I had spent the few private moments of His ministry. Here the gar dens smelled sweet in that Spring, the birds sang beautifully and there was no great press of the public-no tremendous need and pressure. There in the quiet of that place I asked the beloved John to leave Me in the privacy of My own room two nights and one day. I was given fresh water and fruit and closing the door I sank to My knees in the deepest, most heart-felt prayer. In that prayer I followed the soul and spirit of the beloved Jesus through those hours until We would be assured that the Resurrection was accomplished.v At Luxor years before, both Jesus and I had taken the Initia tion of the suspension of the breath and the so called removal of life from the body. We had passed through this Initiation victoriously. How ever, as I have told you, it is one thing to accom plish that Initiation in the protection of a Retreat where the Ascension Flame blazes bright and strong, the Cosmic Masters and the Hierarch standing guard over the body . . . Here there is no breath of evil and there is the vital fire of life and confidence. Here the twelve Masters Who stand watch over the body during that period, have already mastered the Initiation Themselves and They know that LAW IS LAW. They have the confidence, faith and conviction which comes alone when you KNOW the exactness of the Law through the use of your own life energy. It is quite another thing indeed to accomplish such a mission amidst a roaring mob, a mass mind and consciousness which embodied all of the vicious ness of the Astral and Psychic Realms, determined to destroy the greatest manifestation of the Christ in that era. It is a different thing too to re-animate;

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a body t7:t has been broken. It was for this that I prayed! l prayed and prayed those long hours through.-...

Finally, it seemed as though I had fallen asleep at my vigil. Then through my mind came the most magnificent, melodious voice of Gabriel Whom I knew so well. I thought that I was again dreaming of that first Visitation. I would recall those words so often during the early years in Egypt; during Jesus' growing years; during the years of obscurity in Nazareth-those words of Gabriel and that con firmation of Jesus' Messiahship would come to My mind over and over again. So, that morning, as I waited in My lonely vigil, again I heard Gabriel's voice say: "Hail, Mary! full of grace". Ah, I thought, again I am recalling from memory the words of that Blessed One.

However, the words changed then and He said: "Beloved, Your Son is risen! He is victorious! The tomb has been shattered! He inhabits His body and I come-the Announcer-the Protector of the 'Immaculate Concept'-to bring to You the first word of the victory!"

Then I fell to My knees and the tears of grati tude streamed down My face. The room was filled with light and the fragrance of the lily. The magnificent Presence of Gabriel stood there be fore Me and as the brilliant light in the room softened, there also stood My Son-clothed in the same white robe that I had woven for Him! At great moments, you know how the little things magnify-for instance, the ticking of a clock, in your day. In Mine, I kept tracing My own stitching in the hem of His garment and I looked, as a Mother would look, at the line and contour of His face. I looked at the delicately arched eyebrows, the beautiful deep-set eyes and I said within Myself: "NO! My hope has not con jured up this image; it is not the result of My wishful thinking."

Then Jesus reached out His hands and spoke to Me saying: "Mother, it is I!"

I rushed toward Him, thinking to kiss the hem of His robe, but He raised Me to My feet. We walked over to the window together to see the sun-the great Symbol of Life and Light which We had worshipped and loved as an outer mani festation of God, the Father and the Holy Mother. Jesus remarked about the beauty of the morning, but My eyes were so wet with tears I could scarcely see the light of the sun. I looked upon His hand and saw that there was yet the stigmata-the mark of the nails.

I said: "Son, in the resuscitation, why have You left this imperfection on your hands?" "Mother", said Jesus, "For authenticity's sake. Not everyone has the discerning eye of a Mother and would know Me by the line of My cheek bone, the length of My hand or by the light in My eye. Those Who know have said 'Wear yet the marks upon Your hands and feet until You

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have come to Your disciples and those who love You'. However, we shall remedy this in time." I said: "Thank God! At least the deep marks of the thorns in your forehead are gone". He just smiled.

Then, as time was fleeting, Jesus said: "I must be upon My way, beloved. I must now go to the disciples-to Mary, Martha and Magdalene, to Peter, James and John; for they are still sore afraid · and the sight of death has shaken them to their roots",

Before leaving, however, Jesus asked Me: "Be loved Mother, do You wish to come with Me when I go into My glory or will You remain yet awhile?". "Son", I answered Him, "What is Thy will?" He said: "Mother, the magnetizing of the great and mighty Cosmic currents for the Christian

Dispensation can only be done by an unascended

being. There is much yet that I can do and a Dispensation has been offered Me that, after My public Ascension, I may come to You and to John for thirty years, giving You instruction that has not yet been written, if I can call upon You for that sacrifice".

"Behold! the handmaiden of the Lord" I said. "Willingly, joyously, beloved, if it were a thou sand years, I would stay. I Who have lived these thirty-three years to see Your victory-should I not now allow You the greater opportunity for a few years of exile on My part?" He was pleased. Jesus then said: "Go to the granary and I will send Peter, James, Andrew, John and Luke and I will send the ladies who have loved Us. For forty days we shall visit together and I will give You some understanding of the Law. Then, after the completion of My mission, I shall be enabled to appear to John and You alone. One of You must remain at Bethany until this period is com pleted."

This is why John remained at home when vVe went to England, in order to hold that vigil and

to make possible that magnetization. This was

the same sort of activity of which I have spoken to you concerning your great constancy of appli cation and group work together.

We went out then to this old grist-mill. A stream of water flowed behind it and it was very peaceful, very quiet there. First, they fixed a small room for me inside the mill. Soon the beloved Jesus came, and He was always a practical man.

I have spoken little about that practical side of

My Son but I remember well, as He looked at the stream, He called Andrew and James and said: "If you will dig a ditch here, you can irrigate Mother's garden and save all the steps of carrying water for Her".

I was interested at that time in herbs and I made a lovely garden of them. Those herbs had much healing power and did great work. Another day, as We were standing together, Jesus said to Peter: "Peter, this main room is too big. The roofbeam will not hold unless you get a large tree

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to support it. If you will get such a tree and hew it, I will smooth it and We will place it in the center of your assembly room".

So we did. In such homely ways as this did We make Our forty days count. We were preparing for the separation and during this time Jesus told Us much of the Spiritual Law and many of the glorious experiences He had while He was free from the body as it lay in the tomb. On the hillside Mark kept the small flock of sheep which Joseph of Arimathea sent us so we might weave the garments for the men from the wool. The lovely wife of Pilate sent us some im ported milking-goats and a letter asking if she might come to visit Us.

The friends of Judas Iscariot and His family asked if they might give us forty fruit trees, fig and olive. We gratefully accepted and planted them. So we lived in simplicity. In the evenings, We would gather together and I would go over the story of the Nativity. Then Matthew, Mark and John would tell the story in their own words · and record it. Sometimes I would have to say: "No, that is not exactly the way it happened" and We would correct it. Thus We wrote the Gospels together.

Finally, We came to the end of that period when, We had the sweetness of Jesus' Presence so close. The night before the Ascension He spoke to Us and said to John and Me: "Tomorrow at dawn, I shall climb the Hill of Bethany alone. You come with Peter and James around nine o'clock and let the others follow." · Jesus said to John: "Even though You were not at Luxor, yet because of Your love and Your fidel ity and because You shall care for My Mother and My flock, You shall have your Ascension at the close of this life."

The early morning came and Jesus walked alone up the hill. He was like a magnet which was of love alone. His Presence, His sweet voice, His shining hair, His aura-all these were so power fully magnetic that wherever He was, even if people were sleeping, they stirred, rose and fol lowed Him!

On this morning, I spoke to the boys and said: "Watch now that the flock do not follow Him.

Let us allow Him these few hours-the last hours which He will know alone, as a part of the Earth. Let Him commune with Virgo and Aries, Beloved Helios and Vesta. Let Him adore Beloved May, the month of Perfection".

Sure enough, no sooner had His Presence started up the hill, than there followed the beloved who wished to be with Him. We restrained them and in order to keep them happy, I told them some stories from His life. Around nine o'clock, the remaining disciples and Myself ascended the hill. The Presence of Beloved Jesus was already bril lia'nt and shining like a Sun. So bright was

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the light shining through His body, We could scarcely look upon It. He spoke no more with Us then. We just continued to pray with Him, draw ing the Resurrection and Ascension Flames. Then, on that majestic hill-top, from the very rock where I had spent so many years in prayer, Jesus ascended consciously in the visible presence of hundreds of people (about five hundred in all). After that, Jesus came once each day for quite a while and John and I recorded what He said, much as You receive Our words now. Later, Saul of Tarsus came to live with Us and had a period of recuperation, endeavoring to re gain his balance and his good eyesight. Many a time Peter and He sat in the garden and talked. Saul, endeavoring to become so humble, yet had such a background of the Law under the Old Dispensation, that it was difficult for Him to accept the faith of this unlettered Peter. Many a time I came between them to settle an argument. James, Peter and Andrew particularly, went forth and taught. Many came from the Romans, many from the Jewish faith and many came from the Gentiles. All that time We builded the radi ation which was to be the heritage of the Christian Dispensation.

Finally, one day there came a messenger from Joseph of Arimathea that His business was taking Him to the Isles of Britain. We knew that We had a mission to accomplish-to take the "Cup" (the Holy Grail) there and that story I shall give you tomorrow.

Remembering again the sweetness and sim plicity of Our life together and sharing it with you, becomes My gift to you, beloved of My heart. Your homely daily living is building for you and for Saint Germain the same magnetized field for tomorrow's world. Good evening and God bless you!

1Btlnuth :Sltury

cr17other of ~e~u~

November 27, 1954

(On: Intercessory prayer; Qualifications for Healing Temples; First Pentecost celebration; Opportunity to carry "Cup" to British Isles with Joseph of Arimathea. Visiting Luxor; Mag nitizing future Shrines.)

BELOVED children of My heart, I bring you tonight the vital fire of My very Self to give to you of the substance which I have gathered throughout the ages that have been. This has been qualified by My Own consciousness and forms the glory of My Causal Body. My Causal Body is the storehouse from whence I draw forth that which is required to answer the calls of those who need help; the blessings so much needed by the sons and daughters of Earth. Truly it has been said that in the history of men's prayers, it has never been known for one single call to remain unan swered which has come up to Me since I achieved My position of Authority.

I am the Mother of all the souls belonging to this Earth's evolutions and for each of these I shall pray that they achieve the same great Mastery and victorious manifestation as My Own. Nothing has caused more conflict between right thinking men and women than the possibility of intercession before the Throne of the Heavenly

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Father by Those Who have attained Their eternal freedom. I am quite sure that the great sect who protested against the possibility of such interces sion, has not fully understood the true meaning of the Law. As I am the One called upon the most, perhaps, by a great number of mankind to inter cede on behalf of the souls of men, it is the subject with which I can deal more delicately and yet more clearly than almost any other one. Within your own precious hearts is the Flame of Immortal Life streaming from the heart of your own Central Source-God! Within your heart is God in action and there is no power that can ever separate you from it, here or hereafter! No fear of eternal damnation, no requirement of creed or intermediary has any power to interfere when the soul determines within itself to return to God in oneness of consciousness. Even in your unascended Realm, the prayer of a good friend gives the strength and vital essence of someone interested in you which adds to the impeus of your aspiration that rises to the Throne of the One Father. This added impetus magnetizes greater release to bless you on the return current of that energy. Then why cannot Those of Us Who are your Friends in this Realm, also intercede for you, just in the capacity of Elder Brothers and Sisters; not because of position, not because of place, but because We are friends! We are vitally and deeply interested in your life; interested in your well-being; inter ested in your development. Then why deny Us

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the same right of access to the Father on your behalf that you give freely one to another? How often do the words "Pray for me" come from the lips of one who is going into trial? How often have you asked a heart-friend, a parent, a child, to intercede on. your behalf before the Eternal? Just so, those who come in earnestness to the feet of Mary ask her intercession for them selves or a friend. This will add to their small efforts the strength and vital essence of My prayers and calls. The plea to Me for intercession enables Me to release all the magnetic power of those centuries of becoming free. I am merely a Friend, giving of My life and drawing those currents from Higher Realms than the conscious soul of the aspirant can yet reach.

By reason of certain applications and develop ments, some of Us are able to go closer into the Heart of the Father. There, becoming impreg nated with the very substance of that Life, health, vitality and fire, We return, brimming over with the essence of Divinity. We shower this light essence upon those who have called for help each of Us being merely Messengers Who embody the One Life, the One Principle of God. Each of Us is a Grail that carries the assistance needed from the One Source into the world of form. Man does not divide his allegiance to the One God when he asks assistance of friendship. Therefore, to you within this room who wish the intercession of Mary I COME! Not for the purpose of worship;

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not for the purpose of idolatry; but I come with the same friendship and comradeship that you have one for another, magnified by My powers of greater freedom. Now, when you go forth again into the world at the close of this class, carry this great Truth everywhere you can-that the inter cession of the Saints on behalf of mankind is but the same activity of invocation, adoration and de votion which you send up in gToup work when you intercede on behalf of unborn children; on be half of those passing through the veil called "death"; on behalf of the crippled or the insane. Ever, ever as you grow in grace and light does your consciousness intercede on behalf of those less fortunate than you and your hand is offered to help them; so also is your other hand reaching up to Those above you. I see you are compre hending this quite clearly and I thank you. Beloved children, you are given a great oppor tunity to serve in this large city-an opportunity to become a heart-center of healing light which can become planetary in its radiation, if you en dure. Many opportunities come to mankind from time to time and to those who endure unto the end there is given the white garment of Victory. Why are certain places upon the surface of this planet chosen as focuses of protection, of healing, of purity? There are many reasons, beloved ones, all in accord with a scientific law. In ages that have been, there were Golden Eras when the Angelic Host were visible and· tangible to the

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sight of men and God-beings who had never taken flesh bodies, were still the recognized authority governing the spiritual as well as the secular life of the race. During these times, many foci were drawn forth at the various points upon the sur face of the Earth and beautiful Temples were builded. Within those Temples Iifestreams were drawn together who had an affinity for the vibra tory action of blessings that were flowing. As I told you last evening, these blessings flowed like living rivers of force down from those Temples and out to bless the masses. When those foci were magnetized sufficiently and when from the civiliza tions that reigned during those particular eras there were drawn lifestreams who were willing and loyal enough to guard the Sacred Fire, that God-Being Who guarded It, then gave the Fire into the keeping of those individuals who so quali fied to receive It. The priests and priestesses in these Temples sustained the Light that was given and It became the spiritual nourishment and focus of balance for the people.

In the Atlantean days, right here within the compass of your city, a mighty focus of healing was manifest. Here, as you have been told, was a great Temple of Light and the lesser Temples were visible too. Mankind was able to come into this Temple from all over the planet and receive a certain balancing of the mind and body which was required to maintain perfect health and to sustain their physical bodies in dignity for as long

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as their Holy Christ Self desired that they should remain embodied. At the close of this Atlantean culture, when the physical Temples were de stroyed, the etheric Temples remained there. The great and mighty Deva LIBERTY chose to sustain those activities and currents pouring forth at Inner Levels, as well as the blessings that poured forth previously through the mental and physical worlds.

Why do you think certain people are drawn to certain locations? It is because of the great Light which has been focused there in the past and has become a magnet for the cities which rise in those locations. The people in the outer consciousness do not know what drew them.

Then come the new opportunities through the dispensations made possible by the advent of The Seventh Ray, of the Ascended Master Saint Ger main. Now the lifestreams who have been active before in those same Temples in earlier ages, have volunteered to re-embody. They come from vari ous points on the Earth in answer to the heart-call of the soul and are prepared again to magnetize and draw forth some of the etheric perfection which was known in the previous eras. Many of you have come across the oceans; you have come from faraway places to this great me tropolis and here you have made your home. You have come because of the opportunity to again magnetize and externalize certain healing currents, to the glory of God and Saint Germain-that opportunity now lies within the palm of your hand. No man or God knows what any other man will do with opportunity but those of Us Who are free-when We see opportunities so resting in the hands of frail chelas, then do Our prayers rise to the Heart of the Eternal; then do We make intercession that you may determine to see mani fest and externalized, that portion of the Divine Plan into which your gracious lifestreams may be woven.

What do you think is required to so draw forth a healing focus of light? It is a good question for those who are deeply interested. Very, very many qualities are required for such a healing focus. In the outer consciousness, you have no concept of the drive of energy which would be directed toward any group if mankind enmasse had the slightest knowledge that you had a way to allevi ate distress! Mankind seeks surcease from pain, from illness, from disease and also death. Man kind is like a sea that has no longer the control of the tide but rushes ruthlessly toward that which will satisfy the need of the moment. I speak of this because I saw My Son having to go out into the Sea of Galilee to snatch a moment's peace; an hour's sleep ... and in those days there was not the means of communication which would allow the entire planet to know what He was doing. Then, it was only the surge of local humanity. Beloved ones! For the establishing of such a mighty healing focus here, you will need INVIN-

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CIBLE PROTECTION. Invoke the protection of Lord Michael and His great Legions of Angels. See Them stand around this building with Their Swords of Flame. This protection will have to be consciously drawn about you and your environ ment, long before the hour comes when the spir itual hem of your garment performs that first instantaneous healing.

You will need ASCENDED MASTER DIS

CRIMINATION-the capacity to seal the lips against revealing either the needs or the confi dences of those who come for help.

The complete ABSENCE OF SPIRITUAL

PRIDE is also an absolute essential to successful accomplishment here, lest you unconsciously be tray that which you do in secret behind closed doors and draw such a surge of energy toward you that your small numbers and frail strength cannot yet handle.

In order to have such a magnificent activity of Cosmic healing, there are also other requisites which are very important, i.e.: One must be will ing to become an absolutely SELFLESS SERV ANT OF THE LORD. This is the great indi vidual surrender which every man makes within the secret recesses of his own heart and not in the presence of any other person; the willingness to lay upon the Altar of humanity every personal satisfaction and pleasure in order to become as pure and selfless a vessel as possible; a willing ness to endure and stand by until accomplishment is attained.

Then comes the activity of PERCEPTION the training of the faculties by which conscious healings take place; the holding of the thought form, energizing it by feeling and the radiation which enables it to lower that healing into ex ternalized manifestation.

It takes real DIVINE LOVE and FAITH. It takes the kind of love that Beloved Buddha had when first He saw mankind's distresses-those dis tresses which had been hidden from him by the over-solicitude of His father. It is the love for mankind that will not let you rest while any among the race know imperfection, distress or limitation. It also takes the faith that, in Its scien tific accuracy, THE LAW CANNOT FAIL! One must know beyond the shadow of the faintest doubt that the efficacy of that Law is dependent upon the constancy of the application. That ap plication must be held until the condition yields and the necessary PURITY is drawn to produce and sustain the healing.

This PURITY of which We speak is the purity of mind that keeps the mental body free from dwelling in secret (not only in class time but all during the 24 hours of each day) upon any im pure thoughts and feelings. Such impurity would re-qualify the crystal light substance through which might flow the directed healing current of the "Immaculate Concept" of the lifestream. That

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purity requires nothing for itself, not even recog nition or thanksgiving and is absolutely selfless in every way. It lives just like a beam of light and allows the infinite power of the Father to render the service through you.

Another requisite to success along these lines of endeavor is the POWER OF CONCENTRA TION-staying with something until it is fulfilled consciously. How many of you have the con stancy to remain with one application until any one lifestream is completely released and relieved of every distress? Multiply that by 10 billion souls, representing every brother and sister of humanity, and you will know something of the demand of constancy. When no one face is more dear to you than another; when no one countenance draws from you more healing than another but all mankind become your children-that is Divine constancy!

Then the INFINITE RHYTHM pours into your application systematically through visualiza tion and through calls until you have the mani

festation, no matter how long it takes! 01 watch the rhythm of the sea-its rise and its fall; the rhythm of your seasons, your Spring, Autumn, Winter and Summer; the rhythm of your tide, in coming and outgoing; and the rhythm with which you feed your physical body. Then you will have some understanding of the rhythm of application which is required to enable you to become a heal ing fountain for the masses. Spasmodic feeding of the energy of your life into spiritual activity does not make for Cosmic momentum, children. If man kind were as spasmodic in the feeding of the in tellect while they learn the arts or while they learn the professions, there would be very few who could act with efficacy. However, in spiritual mat ters, mankind feels that rhythm is so unimportant. It is one of the most important activities and it is one reason why I am so grateful for the unbroken rhythm of these four days. It enables Me to bring an increase each day of the currents and substance of Myself into your worlds and, through you, to mankind.

Last, but not least, there is required the IN

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maintained among your own members, among your physical bodies, your mental, emotional and etheric bodies and your Holy Christ Selves. Each individual who becomes a part of a healing group must have his own bodies in accord before he be comes a "conductor" of merit. Then each such member must be in accord with the Group Direc tor and that group, as one, becomes a magnifying power of whatever God-Being you invoke. They also become a radiating center of those currents that flow forth into the atmosphere like the spokes of a wheel. That unbroken harmony maintained undisturbed year after year, does draw forth mag nificent activities for the blessings of Earth and Her people.

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Beloved ones, if you are desirous of specializ ing in the activity of healing through the natural affinity of your city and your own lifestreams, please take it seriously and endeavor to perfect your own vehicles so that you may become a glori ous power here. From this center there can flow forth that light and blessing to all the race. It is an opportunity without parallel-one that has drawn Me into your presence. It has drawn the attention of Kwan Yin and all of those of the Angelic Host, particularly Beloved Uriel and the Angels of Ministration. It has also drawn My Beloved Jesus and Lord Maitreya, for all of Us desire to use your energies to conduct the bless ings of healing to mankind at large. Now, We shall return to Our story and give you the blessing and the remembrance of it. As We re cite these simple details, please accept the actual currents which flow from My heart, magnifying that particular quality which you chose to charge into your Tube of Light. This latter suggestion is for those of you who accepted My idea of the other evening that you charge your individual Tube of Light with a specific quality of blessing to mankind as a Christmas gift to Our Beloved Jesus. At your call, this can be a sustained gift to your fellowmen. . . . .

the Hill of Bethany, those of Us Who knew of the coming of the Holy Spirit prepared for the first Pentecost. Our Beloved Matthew was keeper of our funds and it was His responsibility to see that We secured an upper chamber where the disciples might meet, right in Jerusalem. Here the first baptism of the Sacred Fire pouring through them gave them that comfort which their hearts so much desired and that confidence and faith which their souls required. This they had formerly received from the proximity to Jesus' physical Pres ence but it seemed to recede from them with His ascending form. Right after the Crucifixion and the Resurrection, things were very quiet so far as the Sanhedrin and the Roman Government were concerned, for they felt they had put an end to this particular menace to their authority. How ever, the Beloved Jesus suggested that we should in no way draw attention to Our small, humble community in Bethany. He asked Us to go down into Jerusalem and prepare for that Pentecost, using great wisdom in all Our actions so as not to draw upon our heads any undue wrath. Therefore, at that Pentecost with which you are all familiar, when the radiation of the Beloved Holy Spirit poured down, the disciples were filled anew with vital fire; with the desire to go forth and preach the Gospel. . Now they felt even a thousand fold more strong than they did when they were in the actual Presence of the Beloved Jesus. Personally, I was greatly relieved when this took place because that ten days after the Ascension was a great drain upon My strength. They all leaned on Me for faith and confidence in that

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seeming "loss" of the proximity of the physical association with their Friend, Jesus.

For a time we abided in this comparative peace and we planted our grain, flax and trees. We sheared our sheep and wove our garments. In the evenings we wrote the simple Gospels. The women sewed and embroidered and the disciples them selves taught those who came to Us. Then one day there came a message from Joseph of Arimathea who had great business holdings in the British Isles. It was requisite for him to sail west on a trip to Britain and he gave us the invi tation to accompany him. As we had been told by the Beloved Jesus that sometime, previous to Our Own victory and Ascension, it would be neces sary to carry the "Cup" to the British Isles, We felt within Ourselves that this was the hour of oppor tunity. At about this same time We heard that Pilate was to be replaced by the Romans and we knew then that the new Governor would not be as lenient as Pilate had been. The disciples there fore thought it wise for Me to be removed from that place temporarily, so we made our simple preparations to join Joseph's caravan and go west. Joseph of Arimathea, like all men of great wealth in his day, had many slaves and those slaves manned the galleys of his boat. I said to him: "Joseph, We cannot carry that Sacred "Cup" with slave labor". He said: "No, truly, that could not be". Then from among the Christians of out little band we received offers from enough of the gentlemen to man each oar when required-when the winds of Heaven did not provide the sufficient motivating power for the sails. We left John in Bethany to hold the daily tryst with Our Beloved Jesus. We also left Andrew and Mark and with Us We took Peter, James, Bartholomew and Nathaniel. We also took Mary of Bethany but Martha re mained at home to watch the household with her usual care. Pilate's wife also came with Us for she was to return to Rome and We thought to leave her there en route. We were a simple but dedicated band. I remember, as We all knelt that final morn ing and John gave us the benediction, We felt the Presence of the Beloved Jesus.

The first bloom of My youth was gone and the journey seemed long to Me. I wondered within Myself whether I should ever return to the scenes so dear to Me because of the Christian pageant of which I had been a part. However, I did-I re turned again! Tomorrow I shall tell you of those last days and of My Own victory. However, today we shall continue the story of Our journey. We passed Alexandria (in Egypt) and Joseph asked Me if I would like to visit Luxor. I was indeed delighted to have the opportunity. As you know, Alexandria is quite a distance from Luxor and Joseph's boat could not take Us all the way. So, Joseph and his group waited for Our return at Alexandria while Peter, James, a few others and Myself went to Luxor.

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There I renewed My association with the mag nificent Hierarch of that Retreat (Serapis Bey) and gave Him My personal gratitude for His assistance in that victory of the first Resurrection morning.

I stood in the Halls of Luxor, smelled the fra grance of those lovely lilies and felt the Flame of the Ascension pass through My body. I so much enjoyed that association, short and sweet as it was.

Then as We returned to Alexandria, to Joseph and his group and joined Our caravan, We stopped at the Island of Crete near Greece. There we stayed a month and the Beloved Jesus in His great kindness came to Us and helped Us magnetize and prepare the way for the "Great Persuader" the Apostle Paul (today, the Ascended Master Hila rion) . He was later to bring the light into that land. Then, as We left Crete, We headed toward Rome. You will remember that We had with Us Pilate's wife whom we were to leave at that city. However, the Beloved Jesus came to Us and said: "Stop not in Italy as there is already a great move ment begun against Christianity. Move onward". So we did go on and Pilate's wife was very glad for the opportunity of continuing the journey with Us.

Then we sailed onward to the very tip of the Iberian Peninsula. There I disembarked in order to make the pilgrimage through Fatima, through Lourdes, through Orleans, through all the places that would be magnetized later. I stayed and prayed some time in each one and the current of energy from My Own heart drew down those spe cial Rays which some great soul would later vital ize. When I came to the north of France, We met the kindly Joseph of Arimathea again and he car ried Us across the Channel to the magnificent Isle of Britain. As We set foot upon these shores, I carried the "Cup" within My Own hands and all of Us knelt on the sands. As We were so kneeling, the Beloved Jesus manifested and gave the first benediction and ceremony of the Holy Grail. It was this etheric record into which the Beloved Arthur (King Arthur of the Round Table) was to "tune in" so powerfully later. The "Cup" was left by Us in Glastonbury.

We remained in the Isle of Britain for some time, traveling up through Scotland and Wales. We then went into Ireland where a few hundred years later another disciple of Lord Maitreya (the Beloved Saint Patrick) was to render a service to life. Again We magnetized that place through prayer, by invocation and by devotion to God until those mighty currents stood as a living pillar of vital fire and light. Into this pillar of light the mighty Patrick walked, in His outer consciousness not even knowing of this prepara tion made for Him by Those who went before. Even so, He felt that strength and fire which en abled Him to bring the Christian faith into Ire land. How seldom does mankind know the prayer,

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the invocation, the magnetization and the appli cation that makes their ministry possible as they place their feet in the shining footprints of those who preceded them.

We had a lovely stay in the Isle of Britain which was destined for a great future. Here Francis Bacon (now the Beloved Saint Germain), desired to es tablish a "United States of Europe", hoping, if it were successful, to extend it to the rest of the world. Here also the Beloved Jesus gave a blessing through radiation that one day all mankind shall see in its fullness. We left three of Our party in Britain and started the long journey home around the Rock of Gibraltar, through the Mediterranean. I was so glad to see that lovely old granary and I was glad to see the seeds that I had planted fully grown and bearing a fine harvest. It was good to see the trees We had planted grown so tall and strong. I was delighted, too, to see the beloved brothers and sisters who rushed forward to meet Me and then to kneel down in the privacy of My Own little room and kiss the ground of Judea. Thus, at the close of this trip, was Our great mis sion accomplished.

After that, I had but to abide within the patience of the Great Law until My call should come; until I should hear My Beloved Son say: "Mother, Your hours are accomplished. Now, COME HOME!" Thank you for your loving interest. Good evening!

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November 28, 1954

(On: "Grace", More intercessory prayer; more on journey carry ing "Cup" to British Isles; Return to Bethany; First community life of Christian Dispensation; Ascension of Mary.)

IN the Name of the One living God that beats your hearts, in the Name of the Ascended Jesus Christ Whom I represent, I call today from the heart of Heaven Itself the "Grace" of the Holy Spirit, that sweet anointing from above that des cends, enters into your soul and stirs there again the remembrance of the perfection which you knew long before the world was! This "Grace" of the Holy Spirit which I call forth for you now, releases the perfume of your own Divinity, com ing from that airless cell in your heart. It satisfies your soul, sublimates it and raises each of you again into the glorious and magnificent victory of your God-estate from whence you have fallen into present limitation.

I speak to you this morning on the subject of "Grace". "Grace" comes alone from the Spirit and is a gift from the Godhead Itself. It is "Grace" which makes it possible for those of you, among all the great numbers of people in this city, to

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believe that I AM HERE; to comprehend My words and to accept the possibility and actuality of the communion of Saints with unascended beings. It is that spiritual "Grace" which enables the soul to discern Truth; that enables the heart to recognize the import of the Cosmic moment; that enables the knee to bend before the Cosmic Law's fiat and Our hands to be outstretched to give assistance. Even in your world of outer ac tivity, that which is done gracefully-that which is done with a spirit filled with a sense of grace brings happiness to all the individual contacts. That which is done grudgingly, or through a sense of duty, ofttimes brings little of comfort or happiness to either the benefactor or the one who is the recipient of the benefaction.

This spirit of "Grace" is an ephemeral activity and yet it should be wooed, invoked and called forth by the students upon the Path. Without it, one misses so many of the wonderful opportunities of each hour. You see, the sounds of the outer world are so loud that the voice of the Spirit within can scarcely be heard.

I have been called so kindly "The Mother of Grace" and have been referred to as being an individual "filled with grace". As One Who abided within a state of "listening grace" through all My life, I can recommend to you the cultivation of that specific radiation which comes from God. My children, live within a state of "listening grace", for you never know the .hour of visitation. Never do you know when the voice of God, speaking through the lips of an outer man, may be giving to you the opportunity of a lifetime! However, when you are calm and poised and your Inner Self is filled with that consciousness of "Grace", you can hear the Word of God and see His living Presence, no matter what the disguise or the form through which It manifests. I have been told that had I not been in a state of "Grace" at the instant when Gabriel chose to come and give to Me the message concerning the coming of the Messiah, I would have missed Him. If Joseph had not been listening within His secret heart, We would not have heard the warning of, the Angel to flee before Herod's wrath. All through Our lives, in split second crises, the consciousness of harmony and "living inside with God" made it possible for Us to avert so many of the appear ances that could have engulfed Us.

"Grace" is of the Spirit. He who lives within that calm, radiant peace, resting on the bosom of His Own Eternal Immortal Flame, such a man is wise indeed. He is ever alert to the Word of God in every sense and the direction of that Great and majestic Presence, ready for the Messengers from on High Who would choose to use such an one. You may enjoy knowing that your blessed "force field" which has been drawn this morning is in the form of a glorious Maltese Cross made of the Easter lily. As that "forcefield" expands, I call upon you; upon the souls of all incarnate mankind;

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upon the Great Angel Devas over every church in this great metropolitan area and over every hos pital and asylum, the Holy Grace of the Mighty Maha Chohan. I call that "Grace" forth also through the hearts, souls and spirits of every priest, minister and rabbi-every religion in this great metropolis-and through the spirit and very selves of every one dedicated to God's good throughout the planet. In the Name of the Ascended Jesus Christ I make this call and, even as these words are spoken, that glorious sweet anointing flows from the Heart of the Universal, nourishing the shoots of spiritual accomplishment within the souls of men. As this class closes today and the release is given to the Angelic Host through Lord Michael's charge, the Angels of Uriel shall take those lilies which have been drawn in this lovely "forcefield" expanding that magnificent Maltese cross whose form they make, until the planet is held within that cross. Then, from above, the Angels of the Madonna Temple shall shower the inner atmos phere of Earth with the form of the lily. This form represents the Ascension, the redemption of the Earth and the Ascension of all mankind. So, truly do we live in an hour of accomplishment. My lovely ones, do you know that I have written these few memoirs on your life? Just as if you took a plain piece of paper and wrote with a pen, so have . I taken your life-life which you have used month after month and year after year in making these calls and applications. This has be- come a gathered momentum of substance and on it I have written My Own words which shall en dure. Perhaps they will become an interesting story to generations even yet unborn. I am very grateful for this privilege of being able to so write upon your life.

Now as you enter into the glory of the sacred weeks approaching the Christmas Season, I believe you will feel a closeness to Beloved Jesus, Beloved Saint Germain and Myself. Remember, I am willing to intercede for you as a Friend and an Advocate, if you want Me. I am willing to offer My prayers and invocations with yours. Just as you would take a small candle flame and enfold it in a mighty compass of a bonfire, so does the prayer, invocation and aspiration of an Ascended Being enfold the small slender aspiration and the timid application of the unascended. In that com bined upward rush of energy, your call can reach and be accepted by the Higher Heavens through the momentum of that which We offer. Now we shall turn again to the story which I have woven for you with much joy. While I have been doing this, I have woven into the substance of your worlds a realization of Our actual, practi cal reality as individuals.

During the journey from Judea to the Isles of Britain, from time to time I was prompted to draw into our company certain lifestreams from the various countries through which we passed. There again the state of "listening grace" was so

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important. Perhaps I would be just walking along the road or visiting with some friends and I would suddenly hear a very delicate burst of music when I would pass through the aura of a specific soul. I could feel and sense that vibration in My body. It was just as delicate as the song of a bird, scarcely discernible; yet, when I would hear that, I would pause and look around to see whom I was to invite to accompany Us.

Out of the land of Egypt alone, I drew twelve individuals. From Greece We drew several more and when Joseph (of Arimathea) put us ashore in Portugal, we began that long wearisome journey through Spain and France. Crossing the Pyrenees is no small task when one has not the comfort of carriages and has but the assistance of one's own locomotion or sometimes a donkey. We drew from Portugal those who were to be the children· of Fatima later and We drew from Spain those who were to be known later as Loyola and Xavier. We drew from France a small child who was later to become Bernadette. All of these We gathered into Our group, depending upon the courtesy of Our host to accept Our ever-increasing number. When We got to Glastonbury We abided for some time, as We were making certain records for a future day. There We drew a very small infant who would one day be the Mighty Saint Patrick and glad I was I had women in My company to help me care for him. Those of you who have crossed the English Channel or know the rough seas off the shores of Spain, can imagine what it was to travel these seas with small children in not so large a vessel, propelled by oars and sails. Some times We were becalmed for days in a blazing sun and sometimes tossed about like a chip on those rough seas. Then I was glad We had woven cloaks for ourselves from the warm wool of the sheep. These made Us more comfortable but even so, there was very little privacy and very great prox imity among those who were comparative strangers. Yet, We made that journey in such harmony. Those oarsmen, with their strong arms, as they beat out the path for that vessel through the blue waters of the Mediterranean, were creating for themselves the right to be the first Knights of Arthur's Court. How long is the karma woven before the day of opportunity, which gives man the right to wear the Crown of Victory! It was a long journey back, but We finally re turned to Our home. You will remember We had left the Beloved disciple John in charge while We were gone. John was a visionary and a dreamer. He was a mystic but not a practical man. There fore, when We got back, Peter (the Patriarch of our new activity) was distressed indeed to find that, although through Martha's care the house hold had run smoothly, individual liberties had run down the morale of our new community. Peter said to James: "Never again shall I go away unless you remain. Never again shall I leave to this dreamer the fate of a community that is yet

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so new that it could easily be swallowed up again by the Sanhedrin or by Rome". I smiled within Myself for I knew that love was still the greatest thing in the Universe. Not one had left and even as they had clustered around Jesus, now they clustered around John. In the fragrance of His Presence and His love they found peace. Then I think began the fifteen most difficult years, the years of adjustment with the many selves; the years when I had to be Mother and referee among so many types of individuals. For lack of actual leadership, the community at home had reverted to or continued in the celebration of the Jewish feasts-the Passover and others. Peter was incensed at this. He said to Me: "Mother, it is fitting now that We have Our own new and vibrant worship. We shall build around new holi days the events of Our Master, doing away with the old."

I said: "Yes I think it is time". So We had Our first Christmas celebration. The disciples pre pared a small crib as a surprise for Me and We re-enacted the Nativity with a lot of happiness and joy.

I had meant to tell you that, in the visitations of Beloved Jesus after the Resurrection, the music which you use today to "Joy to the World" always accompanied His Presence. Ofttimes when We would be together, I would be amazed that the entire group did not hear that theme as Jesus would come within the room in the magnificence of His Electronic Body. He was a part of many of the festivities in which We all joined. In due time, We had Our first Easter celebra tion, Our Ascension Day and Our Pentecost ser vices. Thus We began a rhythm of worship, dis carding the old and building in the new. During this time, I continued My work in the garden for, even yet, I enjoyed the natural activity of healing that is within the Earth. With the help of Mary Magdalene I was enabled to create ointment which We used to put on the feet of the disciples and apostles when they would re turn from their long journeys. As you know, many were barefoot and others had only simple sandals to protect the feet. The hot sands would crack the soles of their feet, but after we had put this ointment upon those feet, in a few days they would be all right again.

Then one day, I remember it well-Peter burst in and said: "Those heathen!"

I said: "What heathen?" Peter answered: "Those heathen from India! Do you know what they have done? They have made a great, big Sun on the side of Our house and they are worshiping it."

I. said: "Well, Peter, let Us go and see".

So We went out and, sure enough, there was a great big Sun, symbolic of Osiris. I smiled and said: "You know Peter, had you thought that the Sun is very like Our Jesus? Each night It seems to descend into the tomb and each morning It has

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a Resurrection. These blessed ones are newly come and do not know the Master as you and I do. They do not worship the Sun any more than We worship Our Jesus."

Peter said: "Well, yes, but there are a lot of people hereabouts who are going to pass by and they think We are fanatical enough without seeing the Sun on the side of Our house".

"All right", I answered. "Besides that" said Peter, "We just white-washed the house."

"Very well. Get Andrew and white-wash over the symbol they have made there. I will give these men some sun flower seed. We will plant them against the side of the house and through the symbol of those flowers they can worship their Sun." Then Peter was pleased. You know you have personalities to deal with wherever you are. Another night I heard a great commotion in the yard and looking out I found Andrew and James intent on going fishing. Peter was oppos ing it violently. I went out. Andrew and James said they longed for the Sea of Galilee, the smell of the salt air and the fresh breezes. I said to Peter: "Now why don't you go with Andrew and James and preach along the shores of Galilee? You need not fish for now you are all 'fishers of men'."

Then they went off together, arm in arm, m happiness. It is joy to bring understanding. Another day the lovely wife of Pilate came, her face flushed with anger and indignation. She said: "That man!" I said: "Whom do you mean?" She said: "He destroyed my lovely Apollo. I had placed Him in the garden where I might use Him as an ornament in a bird sanctuary". I said: "You go and get it". I called Peter Who said: "We won't have any idolatry. We will not have the Roman gods in this community!"

"Peter", I said, "This figure is only representa tive of beauty. It is an embodiment of love and beauty from the Sun. Go get some plaster and replace that lovely head upon its body". Peter did as I asked. We had many amusing experiences and many happy ones.

One day as I was working, I thought it would be lovely to have some bees to give us honey, be cause the men had such plain fare. I had some brassware and knew a way to work with elemental life. I knew that bees respond to certain sounds so I went out into the fields and called the wild bees with the clinking of the brassware, They gathered together with their Queen and we had our own hive and honeycombs. Then the men were able to have honey with their unleavened bread.

Our beloved Mary Magdalene was very much interested in perfumery. Peter balked at that too.

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He said: "What shall we call this? A foppery, perhaps?"

I answered: "Well, let Us put it into the oint ment and when We anoint people's feet for heal ing, the substance will be fragrant." Then He was pleased-so was Mary Magdalene-and there was peace!

Now, looking back, you may think that I sat with hands folded looking Heavenward. Children! I lived as you do and every day brought its own ex periences of happiness and joy but it brought the other sort of experiences also, believe Mel Then came the folks from India and they all sat cross-legged in the corner of the courtyard. The disciples said: "Those who won't work, won't eat." They are not going to sit over there in the corner all day while We have to till these fields and milk the goats, tend the sheep, etc. They aren't going to get any food if they won't help." I said to them: "Look! You are going to have men, women and children, too, from all over the world. Did not Jesus say 'There are also sheep that are not of this fold'? Those men who just sit there have come to be within the aura of Bethany, just to absorb the radiation of the Master with Whom most of you have had the privilege of living and know so well. They are satisfied to go this whole life through and never hear a word from His lips, ask for no visitation, just willing to receive the radiation here which is the hem of His garment".

Then the disciples agreed that this was so and supplied these people with food, fruit and drink, in fact far more than the ascetic could use. 01 We had happy times. We had the coming of the Jew, the Gentile, the Roman, the men of Persia, of India, the men of Egypt and Greece, the men of Gaul and Britain. It is not an easy thing to combine men in spirit. All this time Our Beloved John was growing more and more like His Master, even as to the contour of His face, the shine of His hair and the brilliance of His eyes. Remember, He and I had our daily communion at the top of the Hill of Bethany and sometimes the disciples and friends who had known Jesus in life, accompanied Us. John or Myself would be able to convey to them (in much the same manner as you hear Me now) that about which · Jesus spoke. For years John wrote down those magnificent revelations. He has now applied to the Karmic Board for a dispensation whereby some of those revelations may be given again in His Own words and written into the Book of Life. We are hoping They will permit this to be done. Finally, as time went on, the Beloved Saul of Tarsus (Who later became known as Paul) came to Us. He was another great man who suffered agonies of torment. He suffered such remorse for

what He had done to Stephen and others, besides

the remorse that He had not been in a state of "listening grace" and so missed the opportunity

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of being a part of Jesus' ministry. Yet, He had a terrific drive of energy in His determination to "make things right". I would sometimes find Him in the depths of despair with the tears running down His cheeks. Other times, I would find Him so filled with the arrogance and knowledge of the Law, arguing violently with the untutored dis ciples. I would say: "Paul, listen well, for these men have heard the voice of the Master in faith and they have lived in His aura. They have breathed in the etheric Presence of Jesus". Then He would subside.

During this time, these various disciples and apostles were going out on their various missions and ministries and coming back from these. When Peter would go away on a mission, He would be sure to have James remain behind so that We would not again fall into the confusion which We found on Our return from Britain. We, the women, would endeavor to see that the disciples and apostles had warm clothes, particularly for those who were going into the northern climates. Finally, within about nine years before the close of My embodiment, I said to Peter: "If you will build Me now a small house and chapel apart from the community, by the edge of the stream, I shall cloister Myself and prepare to meet My Maker".

This was done and there I lived the rest of My life. Mary of Bethany and ,other beloved friends would bring flowers, candles and fresh fruit. I spent those years in contemplation of My Lord; in reminiscence of the early days of My life; My first Christmas and all the years with Joseph; the parting while Jesus went into India so soon after His Father had left the Earth; His triumphant re turn; the Resurrection and His own Ascension. It became physically difficult for Me to climb the Hill of Bethany and John kept the vigil for Me. I began to enter more into the world of the "beyond" than the world of the "here". Finally, in May, right after the Pentecost, I said to John: "Call the disciples and apostles home, for be fore August closes Her radiation, I shall have joined My Son".

You know, it took a great deal of time-some times months-to reach individuals who were in far away places like Greece. They all came home, but in the meantime, I had asked that a small chapel be built on top of Bethany's hill, just a very simple one. On the 10th of August I walked up that hill, having asked that I might be alone on this occasion. I placed My feet in the shining footprints of My Son as I ascended that hill. For three days and three nights, I remained there in that chapel fasting and praying. By then, all of the disciples and apostles were home and they came up to the hill for Me. I descended from the hill with them into My Own home and there I spoke to them, the original disciples particularly.

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I told them that I would leave this world and that on the 15th of August My Ascension would be completed. I asked them how they wished to pursue the rest of their course. John said: "I shall follow You, Mother, as soon as I hear the Voice of My Presence".

Paul said: "Knowing My nature, I shall take no chances. If I have earned My freedom, I shall take it!"

Peter James and Andrew said: "We shall tarry until He comes again. We shall endeavor to do throughout the Christian Dispensation, Mother, what You have done throughout these thirty long years." I blessed them all and then the other members of the community came in. I blessed them too. Then I closed My eyes on this world to open them in the Presence of Joseph first, then Jesus. As you know, they placed My body within a rocky tomb and sealed it for three days. During this time I was free in the Higher Octaves, pre paring for the Ascension of My physical form. Then did I return and raise that flesh form. I called it to Me, absorbed it into My Own Holy Christ Self and consciously entered into the Heart of My Presence as My Son did before Me. I left within the tomb a white rose for each one of that community. That is why the white rose is par ticularly dear to those , who were a part of that service.

When they rolled back the door from My tomb, they found the body was gone and the fragrance of the roses filled the place. They then made the Holy Day which is now called "The Assumption of the Blessed Virgin".

After that in My full God-freedom, I enjoyed renewing My associations with all those who had assisted Me on the other side-Lord Maitreya, Gabriel and Raphael, Jesus and Joseph, Anne and Joachim, Elizabeth and John, John the Baptist and all who had gone before. Yes, with Judas tool Then came the crowning of My humble self for service. In a great and mystic ceremony similar to that in which Beloved Saint Germain and Be loved Portia engaged in the month of May this year, the Beloved Master Jesus placed on My head the

Dispensation. Cosmically, I became the Mother of the World. I have remained so until recently when I turned over to Portia, the Goddess of Opportunity, that great office for the New Era. So this morning, beloved of My heart, I give the white rose of friendship in memory of a con scious Ascension. Remember, the day when you too lay aside the garments of flesh and stand God free, I shall greet you, both as a Friend and as a Mother.

in Heaven be upon you always. Good morning!

itlnuth :!lury

91Zother of ~eou¢

Good Friday morning, April 8, 1955

(On: Thought-forms of blessing sent from class; Thoughts at foot of cross on first Good Friday; Mary's vow to Jesus to stay and start Christian Dispensation; Mary's early experiences in Temple and with Archangels; Memories of meeting and associa tion with Joseph; Joseph's passing; Meeting disciples and asso ciation with them; Training with and of Elemental Kingdom; Importance of making friends with Elemental (Nature) Kingdom).

BELOVED and blessed children of My bosom, friends of My heart, co-workers with God in establishing the glory and majesty of His Kingdom, how I love you! How My solicitude, My friend ship, My devotion has flowed toward your life flame that has burned so brilliantly, so constantly and so enthusiastically amid the great seas of maya. Each of you tends the candle of your own light, breathing upon your individual vows the enthusiasms of your personal selves. However, by your co-operative service, you are emitting a light which has encompassed the entire planet through the endeavors of just a handful of earnest, devoted and blessed lifestreams.

One does not know just how far a blessing will go when it is sent forth from the heart of love. A thought-form of blessing no larger than the size of one's fingernail, with beautiful wings upon it, created by love within the heart and released to bless life, may encircle the entire planet. It may rest upon the shoulder of some man, woman or

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child who is "downhearted", giving just the right strength and courage required for that one to again "take heart" and face victoriously the problems of their daily lives. Such an one would be en couraged anew by a blessing born in your breast, issued from your heart or lips but always propelled by feeling.

Lovely ones, as you stood together today and in the preceding days of this class, your Sanctuary looked like one of those beautiful Eucharist Cups which has been fashioned in memorial of the first Communion service. From It has poured forth these various thought-forms, each engendered by your own particular vibratory action and the Ray to which you belong. All of them had tiny wings and they have gone north, south, east and west, anchoring in many human hearts and in many of the Forces of Nature, remaining ensouled there by a Devic Being or a Cherubic Being as the encour agement of your light and as a lasting and perma nent gift from this class.

You see, it is not enough to issue the decrees, the fiats and the blessings and then, when they have spent themselves, to let the world return to sleep again. Those decrees, fiats and blessings must be made "alive" and sustained in light eternal so that they live and grow, even as does the light of My Son, increasing in splendor, in magnetism and in the power to stir other life streams to a like accomplishment. That is the activity of "The Light of God that Never Fails"; the activity of Those of Us Who serve It. In the Ascended Masters' Realm, every thought, every feeling and every spoken word is so perfect, so beautiful, that it has earned the right to live forever and become a permanent radiation of blessing to this Universe. So, this week, We have carefully "combed over" the energies which you have released. We have sent forth those which have earned the right to live in this physical ap pearance world and the mental and feeling worlds of mankind as well. From the Eucharist (which is the body of this class) made up of the living cells of your own life and light, there has flowed a benediction to the Nature Kingdom and the human kingdom too, which will be felt long after you return individually to your small orbits and your respective localities.

Today, on a million altars, candles are burning to My Son. Today, before many pulpits, knees are bent and the words of "The Rosary" are going forth. Through the worship of the people today, remembrance of Me, too, is rising like a blue cloud of incense, not only here in America, but in Europe and the Orient as well. All that magne tized energy becomes a bridge over which My life may flow back into the hearts of those who re member Mary; those who remember Joseph and those who remember Jesus. Abstract as their de votions are, through this activity this morning We bring back to them, each one, the blessing of

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a simple and homely Family Who lived but to serve God and to do His Will. We lived to write on the records of Akasha a message of hope; of God's goodness; of Jesus' light and life, so that succeeding generations might read it-hearts be kindled and spirits stirred. It was Our hope that, here and there among the plodding masses, there might be one or more who would step forth into the shining footprints of Our beloved Jesus, upon the Path of Light and walk upwards (even as My beloved Son did) into the glory of the Resurrec tion and the Ascension.

We wrote on the Akashic records and so We prayed in constant vigilance. We lived a natural life and closed a pilgrimage. When Our days were done, through the graciousness of God and the mercy of His love, We were called "Home". There seemed to have been little accomplished except for the very few who had the honor of proximity to the beloved Master and His message. It seemed as though there had been but little accomplished, too, when My strong, young Boy was placed on Calvary's cross. It seemed that little had been accomplished by His words of wisdom; His life of grace; His miraculous healings. John and I stood at the foot of that cross and as I looked upon the turbulent and curious mob gazing at the seemingly helpless One, I reflected for a moment-thinking "What has all our long life come to? What have We accomplished? We touched the hearts of a few, perhaps, and even those few are scattered today. Y<?uth and beauty here are wilted..." Yet on an Easter morning some time later, as I stood looking at the resusci tated form of the One I loved so well and kissed His blessed hand; as I saw the morning Sun re flected on His shining hair and that luminous warmth in His eyes; as I felt the very texture of the robe I had woven with My Own hands, I thought: "Yest Even if one man has done this; even if no one but Myself and He should ever know of this victory, it has been worth it all. What one has done, all may one day do." You see, that was the promise of the Father of Life before We took embodiment. That was the promise of Lord Maitreya before We took the Initiation that-if one could do it and one would do it, all men, all women, all children would have like opportunity when they chose to accept it.

Therefore, beloved Jesus and I stood that Easter morning in a great happiness of accomplishment and We took a new vow together. We vowed then, that that which We had begun in simplicity but in great faith, We would sustain, so help us God! Even though Our paths might part temporarily, although at Inner Levels We should not meet again for some time, We would sustain the birth of the Christian Dispensation until the Resurrec tion became not only a creed but a manifest ex ternalized Truth to the decadent flesh of all mankind.

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So, when Jesus said to Me: "Will You tarry for a while?" I said: "Son, I Who have lived so long for You; I Who have breathed for nothing else but to give You the courage of My life; I shall remain if it be an Eternity!" There We made the pact that We later fulfilled at Bethany when Jesus walked up that beautiful pathway to the lovely rock where I had prayed so often; He to walk triumphantly into the heart of the Father from whence He came; I to remain with a few-the few who had heard His voice, the few who had felt the heart-throb of His Presence; the few who were then scattered and shaken. I was to be their strength, their comfort and their love. Then, to gether, We would magnetize whatever currents Jesus, in His light and wisdom, would send to Us. We did this so that the Christian Dispensation (which would live for 2000 years on Our light) might have the vitality, the fire and the necessary spiritual strength to sustain itself when We had passed from the screen of life.

Beloved ones, you do not yet know what it means to have a complete and thorough dedication to a God purpose! You are in the process of learn ing and that brings you so close to My heart for, you know, I am your Mother! I am your Mother and My love for you is as great as it ever was for Jesus, as I cared for Him. The "Immaculate Con cept" which I hold for you is as shining and per fect as that given to Me by Gabriel on that day, when again He brought to Me through the veil of flesh, remembrance of My vow; remembrance of Jesus' ministry. No whit more beautiful was Jesus' "Immaculate Concept" than is your own! Ah, no! You will come to know as you rise and rise in consciousness, that all of God's children, each and every one, is as dear as the other. The fullness of perfection for each one becomes the very motivat ing power of the pulse-beat of your sweet hearts. You know, I was only three, very small in Earth's count of years, when Anne and Joachim took Me to the Temple. That Temple was very large to a baby's eyes and very impersonal, dear hearts. My mother and father were very real to Me-so was My home and My baby life. Yet that day My parents performed the great service of renuncia tion and I entered that Temple life to remain there until I had attained My maturity. I remem ber the kindness of those who cared for Me but the disciplines of the Temple are never softened for the individual. Not even for My Jesus were the disciplines of Luxor softened, nor for John, the disciplines of the Essenes. They were not softened; either, for a tender child in the Temple in which I abode.

It was a lonely life for a small child Who was introspective in the extreme and those who were kindest of all to Me were the Archangels. I had newly come from Heaven; I had not yet forgotten the shine of Their wings, the lustre of Their hair nor the magnificence of Their Presence. In the small cell which was mine, often at night the great

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and shining Presence of Lord Michael would come and sit by My bed. In order to assist and instruct Me, He would have a group of small Defending Angels march up and down across the bed for Me, just as you would allow your children to play with toy soldiers. However, these were real, moving Beings. In this manner He taught Me with the gentleness and kindness of a Mother, the activities of the Defending Angels, Those Whose particular service it was and is to keep the souls of men free (wherever possible) from the subtle influences of suggestions of impurity and imperfection.

Then as We grew to understand each other, these little figures would act out the various stories which He was giving to My consciousness, to show the AU-Power of God.

Early in My activities in the Temple, the priests were instructed that I was to be particularly trained in the powers of concentration. I think I was not more than five years of age when, with stylus in hand, I was given the chore of copying off the letters from the Scriptures and, while My maiden friends played in the grasses and enjoyed the dance, I would laboriously figure out these letters and endeavor to keep My mind from the shining Sun which I adored; from the blue sky and from all the joys of childhood. In the after noon, I would ofttimes go as far away as I could from the groups of individuals, to a certain place where I would have the comfort and sweetness of the great Archangel Raphael, Whose love was so great. I cannot describe to you the happiness of that association; the beauty of that companionship. Later came the experiences with the strength of the mighty Gabriel-the infinite power of His purity and light.

However, having accepted the karma of the race, as I grew in years, the remembrance of the Angels' wings became more dim. No longer could I hear Their voices. Then there came a period-the "night-time" of My soul-even as each of you has had or will have such a "night-time", when the glory of Heaven seems shut away. During that time I had to ponder in My heart upon the "One ness' of Our Lord-God and Myself. This I con tinued to do until I was released from the Temple. Then came the days when I was awaiting the appearance of the Guardian of My life. I can never forget the day I first met Joseph. I can never forget it because, behind Him, for the first time in a good many years, I saw the blazing figure of the great Archangel Zadkiel. I really did not see the person of Joseph at all, but I knew it was He for whom I was meant. Behind and above Him stood the "shining One" (Zadkiel, Archangel of the Seventh Ray) , thus reminding Me of the An gelic Kingdom which, it seemed to Me, had re ceded into the imaginings of childhood. I remember those days when Joseph and I pre pared for the birth of Jesus. I remember making the small garments for that Infant and enjoying

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the association with Joseph Who was, in Himself, both a mystic and a very advanced spiritual man. He was a member of the Essene Brotherhood, One who knew much of the Law and Who imparted to Me a great deal of that Law in those months of waiting. Together We planned Our future; to gether We prayed that each of Us might have the strength to fulfill Our mission in glory. So We prayed that night in Bethlehem when I curled that first fine hair of Jesus over My finger and Joseph smiling, said: "I think now We are over the worst of the experience". We were ready then to settle down into the growing years. I remember waking in the night and, seeing Joseph standing in the doorway, I felt that He was troubled. I arose quickiy and went to His side. He said: "Mary, I had a warning in the night. I know not whether it is of God and the Angels or whether it is the fears of the Psychic Realm which are pressed against My conscious mind. It seems not possible that He, Who is born to such a great victory, could be so soon subject to such cruelty. Yet, I am told vVe should flee from this land at once."

I said: "Joseph, let us get still. Let us pray". We did so and I soon felt within Myself the truth of that message. You know how We took Our Babe and left. You know how We entered into the land of Egypt. Behind Us the blood of infants flowed in the streets and I vowed then (and Jesus later with Me) that We personally would assist every one of those children to their Ascension whose life blood was a sacrifice; who died that He might live. That vow shall be fulfilled in. the Name of God!

For a time, We lived in Egypt and Our beloved Jesus went quickly and easily through all the ex periences there-all the experiences at Luxor. I was not permitted to go with Him to study within the Temple but I was trained in the powers of concentration and privately given the same in struction by Beloved Serapis Bey. That instruc tion was on the Resurrection of the body, the suspension of the breath and the preparation for the public manifestation of that Resurrection which would take place through My Son, for the blessing of all mankind.

Later came the years when We returned to Jerusalem; when the "immediate" (let us say) troubles and dangers were gone. Then came the growing years, when We had to fulfill the "letter" of the Scripture; when Jesus went up to the Tem ple and fulfilled in obedience all the "letter" of the Law, becoming in Truth "the Prince of the House of David". There We enjoyed those sweet years together.

Finally, one day, Joseph said to Me: "Mary, I am told that I have not yet too many years ahead. There will come a parting when You must go on alone. I have been told by My Teacher that it is time now to introduce Our Son to the Essenes. It is also time for Me to bring James and John

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into Your Presence and to set them upon their spiritual path. Then I am to go out to seek those men who My Teacher has told Me will be the strength of You and Jesus in the days that are to come".

James and John had been raised by a kindly woman and Joseph, their Guardian, (knowing that her span of life was about over) was con cerned within Himself about the boys, yet young in years. He said to Me: "Beloved Mary, do You think We should bring James and John into Our home at this time or do You feel that it is wiser that We keep it sanctified for the Presence of Our blessed Jesus?"

I said at once: "I shall not make this decision alone.

Let us rest it with the Lord". As We did, We found it was best to keep Our beloved Jesus in that uninterrupted· sanctified peace. So, Joseph then said: "I shall go to these boys and ask which one of them will accept the role as head of the household and which one is willing to take the training preparatory to being the 'right-hand' of Jesus in the days that are to come".

Joseph went to the home of the boys. James, being stronger, older and more of a practical man, took upon Himself the responsibilities of the household. John was delivered to the Essenes where He remained in Their training for some years. After John had gone, Joseph said to Me: "I think I had best take James with Me down to Galilee. He is young to live so alone and I shall take him to those men who are to stand with the Beloved Jesus in the days ahead. I shall acquaint Myself with those men and, according to their capacity to understand, I shall endeavor to alert them as to things which are to come-that is, if you can spare me awhile, beloved". I said: "Joseph, We live but for one thing-for the victory of this ministry; for the education of those who can assist Us. You are as free, Beloved, as though I were not in embodiment". Joseph said: "I will make these journeys as short as I can, for My span of years on earth now grows very short. Before I go, I want to have as much association as possible with You and this Boy Whom I love more than life".

Joseph then took James and went down into Galilee. There He came upon Peter and Andrew and talked with them. Now, this may be surpris ing to you (at least to some of you who may not know the inner action of the Law) but Joseph knew of those disciples for years before Jesus was even aware of who they would be. Joseph talked with these men and brought to each one as much as their consciousness could absorb and the Law would permit at that time. Then He returned home and We discussed them together. Joseph would say: "Mary, there you have a strength in that one; there you will have perhaps a doubt; there you will have a sweetness-look for these men'',

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I did not personally meet the disciples until some time later but when I did Joseph's wise ad monitions were of great assistance to Me. You see, I had nothing in my whole life but a desire to concentrate upon the "Immaculate Concept" of My Son. Therefore, at that time, Joseph did for Me and for Jesus the preliminary work in the establishing of the Christian Era. Today, you are giving the same kind of service to Him as you serve the Cause of Saint Germain.*

One day, Joseph said: "I am going to take John to join James at Capernaum. Then My work is done".

The parting of beloved Joseph and Myself was not a sad one, as partings go. He was conscious that His mission was completed and, may I say, completed in beautiful dignity. Jesus was already the wonderful, embodied power of the Cosmic Christ, having received that power from Lord Maitreya Whom He had now accepted as His Cosmic Teacher. (Lord Maitreya represents the Cosmic Christ to this Earth.) During Jesus' grow ing years, Our beloved Joseph's service to His liiestream was to be His Teacher and the example of the Father to Him. When Jesus had developed to the place where Lord Maitreya could be His Teacher, Joseph's work was done.

Through the contact of the disciples with Joseph, they were alerted-not to the personality of Jesus,

(Note: Our Beloved Saint Germain was Joseph in a former

embodiment.)

but to the coming of the Messiah-and they were in the process of preparation for their part in that great event. They were alerted, too, to the truth that such a Messiahship was soon to burst upon the screen of life.

You see, part of their great Initiation would come in recognizing that One Whom they were told might come. Joseph did not tell these men that He knew of the actual person Who would be that Messiah but that through the study of the ancient prophecies and teachings of the Law, He felt that the time for the appearance of this Mes siah had arrived. (In other words, they were not told exactly Who that Messiah would be-they had to discern the reality of His mission by the feel ings within their own hearts when they met Him -not an easy task for any human being.) Joseph said to Me one day: "Mary, I suggest that You go up to Bethany as soon as possible after My passing. The beloved Jesus must go Eastward and seek His Own Teacher in India-the beloved Divine Director. You stay in Bethany and, if possible, have Elizabeth and John (the Baptist) come to visit You. I leave You in the hands of friends".

At the hour of Joseph's passing, Jesus and I stood alone with Him and Joseph said: "You know, Mary, I am going to make a vow as I leave this life. As I look upon the beautiful Presence of Our Son; as I look upon . Your light and strength; as I find the passing into the Father's

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Home so sweet; I am going to make a vow to life. That vow shall be that, some day, I shall assist every man, woman and child belonging to the evolutions of this planet, to leave the Earth in the same happiness and dignity; the same control of their faculties; the same assurance of Life Eternal, as I do! If they have done their work well, they shall step consciously into the 'hereafter' in peace and joy."

a " happy passing". You are all acquainted with that, I know. Those of you who are interested in mankind en masse, if you will so call to Him, you can make everyone's "passing" such a dignified, happy and beautiful one.

Joseph was not gone very long before Jesus pre pared to go eastward to India. I went up into Bethany and there I stayed for a time. I shall not repeat Myself for My experiences are chronicled elsewhere." I found that Hill of Bethany which was to become the place from which Jesus as cended into the glory of Perfection-the apex of His ministry. By walking up that hill every day alone, praying and sending forth My invocations for His victory, I was actually making a pattern of light for Him. By so doing, I made a pathway just as every individual does who passes victori ously through the "wilderness" experiences of human creation. Every such an one makes a wider

(Note: The experiences to which beloved Mary refers here

are described in the various addresses in this book.) pathway of faith and truth for those who follow on. So, with My Own physical body again (as at the time of birth) with My very life, I made a pathway of light for Jesus up that hillside. On the top of that hill, I made a pathway too-here through the Psychic and Astral Realm, connecting with the consciousness of the beloved Vesta (God mother to the Earth from our physical Sun) . Over this pathway My Son would later walk in triumph. Even though the strength was His, the vitality and fire, still all of My life added to His, gave Him added assistance.

Jesus returned from India, you will remember, and We had a short time together before His min istry began in earnest; before He set out to find the men whom Joseph had previously alerted (those who were to become the disciples). Jesus quickly found these men and returned with them in happiness. Then, for the first time, I met those of whom I had previously heard-those whom I knew in character and nature through the descrip tions given Me by Joseph, my beloved spouse. Through His service, He "bridged" our conscious ness.

For the most part, while Jesus was engaged in His ministry, I remained at home, endeavoring to prepare for the victory of the Resurrection morn ing. I have already spoken to you briefly about that.

Now, as the Ascended Ones always come to bring light, strength, beauty, courage, happiness

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and positive assurance to all, while I have spoken to you this morning, I have opened My heart; opened the treasure-chest of sweet and sacred memories I have never shared before. During this time, also, vVe (beloved Jesus and the other radi ating Masters) have been giving Our blessing, Our benediction to all mankind. Please feel that, while I have been speaking to you, My love and light have entered many bodies where there has been pain; many souls where there has been dark ness; many minds where there has been confusion. That love, light and life shall stand there, giving the assistance long after you have hastened back to your loved ones in this world of form. Before I close, I would like to speak briefly to you on the Elemental Kingdom with which you are primarily concerned during this class. I was trained for My service to life in holding the "Immaculate Concept" for the Master Jesus in the Nature Temples. Therefore, I can speak with some certain authority upon this subject. My feel ing of that authority I wish to charge into your feeling worlds before I leave you today. The nature of the Elemental Kingdom is to mirror that which It sees. It immediately becomes that which It looks upon! After We (some other maidens and I) were trained, we were given eight or ten small Elementals to teach. The first ex perience We had was that, as We appeared before our little audience, every Elemental there immedi ately looked just like Us! It was like looking into a mirror and seeing eight or ten replicas of Our selves. Each of Us had this experience. At first, We did not realize what was happening. I thought within Myself: "I guess they have given me Elementals to teach who have an affinity to Me and that We are all more or less alike because that is the harmonious way to work". I proceeded for many months under that as sumption!

Then I began to realize that, if I came in pink, they were all in pink, too! If I came in blue, they were all in blue also! If I wore a wreath of flowers in My hair, they all had exact wreaths of fiowers in theirs! I began to think that through and I said to Myself: "Now, either there are no beings here and I am externalizing into maya My Own form, or there is something wrong with what I am trying to do".

Beloved hearts, in this work you must learn to think! You are given just a hint, let us say, of th entire scheme and you must develop it. To som you can give an experience and they will develop it; others still sit with the same "kernel" of Truth at the close of life and nothing has come forth in the way of flower or fruit. However, if you liaur determined to get somewhere on the Path of Li/e you will begin to examine the experiences you have. So I did.

From then on, I carefully watched the rcspons•· of the Elemental Kingdom. I learned then that it was Their nature to mirror that which They saw.

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Well, what had They seen here but just an inex perienced girl, accomplishing nothing? It came to Me then: "You are not teaching! You are just mirroring yourself in a lot of tiny beings; you are just duplicating that which you are. Now, why don't you create for them something They can fashion? Make it interesting for Them-make this form you create more powerful than yourself and let yourself sort of "fade away" until the personal self is no more and the Elementals are then able to create a flower, piece of fruit or whatever it is that will be of benefit to the Kingdom which They serve".

I chose something simple that would be of beauty and use on this planet Earth, the "Maiden hair" fern. It is still growing here on Earth today and was a gift to your planet from God through My consciousness. That day I stopped before I entered the Temple and I said to Myself: "Mary, You must decrease now, so that this form (the fern) which you have created in thought and feel ing, may increase and be the predominant figure before the attention of these Elementals. You will know whether it is You or Your service which is greatest by the reaction of these little mirrors here".

I held that "Maiden-hair" fern which I had created before My tiny audience and I endeavored to let Myself just "fade out", impressing that form on their little consciousnesses. The happiest mo ment of My life at that time was when they ceased to be "little Marys" and began to be the embodi ment of the form which I had designed for Them. I knew then that in that was Their mastery. Now, why do I tell you this? I tell it, not be cause My life is of any particular importance to any other being, but because you are now (or soon will be) dealing with the forces of Nature all around you. You are now dealing with a world which is in the process of decay. You can believe this or not. You are dealing with the water ele ment, with earth and air! What is that Elemental life going to do when it sees turmoil and fear? It will just magnify, mirror and increase that turmoil and destructive creation, unless it can see mastery, control and balance. / You know, even with an angry animal, how it will act when it "smells" fear. However, when there is serenity and mastery present, the animal creation recedes and the love principle acts!

When you have anything unusual happen (you don't even have to go out of the room to prove this)-an unexpected sound, the dropping of some article, or something of that nature, there is a shock to the emotional body. What do you think it would be like if you were to have a trembling of the Earth; the rising of a tidal wave; or, perhaps, tremendously destructive cataclysmic activity? What do you think that would be like in the masses of people who have no conscious knowledge of the Law; no spiritual training; no discipline; little balance and not much control of their en-

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ergies? Yet, the Nature Kingdom would mirror the feelings of those people! Suppose there were ten million people filled with fear. Add to that the energy swirling in the atmosphere where cata clysmic activity has already begun and you will have all that distress mirrored in the oceans, in the air and in the earth as well! If you have a few -only a few- who can decrease the personal self and hold the same mastery Jesus did when He stood in that boat on the Sea of Galilee and com manded It to be still-THEN YOU CAN

HANDLE THE ENERGIES OF THE NA

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The Nature Kingdom always knows Its master! However, if there is no Master in a city; if there is no Master in a nation or on the planet; the Elementals will follow the patterns of the masses because They will mirror and outpicture that

which They see. THINK THIS THROUGH!

Think it through, beloved ones, and become friends with the Forces of the Elements. Be positive in your desire for Mastery; be prepared to be Master of your own energies and Master of all the energies you contact in the world about you!

As the beloved Kwan Yin continues Her ser vice, I hope you will dedicate and consecrate the decree class you intend to hold tonight to the Forces of the Elements, getting a warmth of feel ing for them; a feeling of friendliness and a con sciousness of Their presence. If you. will give a few hours of your life-not in tension or fear but in the release of happy energy (for happy en ergy is the only kind that will connect with the Elementals in the first place) you can render a great service.

Beloved ones, having taken much of your time this morning, I give you My love-the love of a Mother for Her children; the love of My blessed Jesus Who will speak to you on Sunday; the love of Holy Lord Maitreya Who guarded and guided both Jesus and Myself; the love of John (Who was, despite His statement to the contrary the other evening here) a strength and a comfort. Every wish I had (even before it was expressed) He always tried to fulfill. On every occasion where I required help, John always stood by. Truly, He was love.

To you, dear heart friends whom I knew in Judea; to you with whom I broke bread; to you who walked with Me and Our beloved Master Jesus; who accepted and enjoyed the glorious Resurrection morning; Who walked up the Hill of Bethany and saw His shining radiance in the atmosphere; to you-a happy and a holy Easter! God is with you until We meet again!

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(There is a complete Ascended Master address in each booklet.)

SET 1

SET 2

By: Beloved Archangel Michael By: Beloved

Paul, the Venetian Beloved Jesus and Mary Beloved

Pallas Athena and Beloved Saint Germain Maha

Chohan

Beloved Kuthumi

Beloved

Sanat Kumara

SET 3

Beloved

Serapis Bey

By: Beloved Saint Germain

SET 4

Beloved Maha Chohan Beloved Michael (Archangel of By· Beloved Nada Protectio_n) . . Beloved Meta

B I d K y·

Beloved Michael (On relation- ship of angelic, elemental e ave wan in

and human kingdoms) Beloved Venus

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Memoirs of Beloved Mary